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11 years ago
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Ive never really done this sort of thing, writing in a journal, digital or analog but..I think it's something that would be good for me to do on occasion.
It's been a few years, since she left. The snow reminded me of this. I remember the first snowfall we had together. It was so much fun watching her eyes light up as the flakes fall. Just like her reaction the first time she saw a squirrel out at my parents'. I remember staying a night with a friend and she was with me and it snowed enough to lay decently on the ground and we went out to play in it. I shuffled around and wrote in the snow "I Love You". It was pretty lame and cheesy, but she loved it at the time.
I broke my phone recently, and so I booted up one of my old phones and transferred all the photos and such from it and man, so many memories held in there..her first visit, the days we spent together. I miss it all.
Its been a couple years, but yet I still love her so. I was not the best. I should've been better for her. Tried harder. I should've..idk..been...more. But I guess I wasn't meant to be all she thought I was. I guess I wasn't her twin flame as she once called me.
It's snowing outside and all I can think of is you. This time of year always brings you to my mind, more so that usual. Some people tell me it's pathetic, to get over it and move on, etc etc but, it's not that easy for me. I wanted to be forever. I wanted all those promises of eternity between us to mean something. And in the end, I just let you down. Let my family and friends down.
I am sorry.
I love you, still, and truthfully, it is a love I fear may never fade from my life, even should I find another. I never knew a feeling like this before, the feeling I had with you all the years we talked and finally, the night we started our lives together. It is a feeling I will cherish for all of my life.
I'm not seeking pity and I know I'll never earn her back, no matter what I do. I can only hope her life brings her happiness and fulfillment and that one day, she finds someone better than me.
Thank you for the memories.
It's been a few years, since she left. The snow reminded me of this. I remember the first snowfall we had together. It was so much fun watching her eyes light up as the flakes fall. Just like her reaction the first time she saw a squirrel out at my parents'. I remember staying a night with a friend and she was with me and it snowed enough to lay decently on the ground and we went out to play in it. I shuffled around and wrote in the snow "I Love You". It was pretty lame and cheesy, but she loved it at the time.
I broke my phone recently, and so I booted up one of my old phones and transferred all the photos and such from it and man, so many memories held in there..her first visit, the days we spent together. I miss it all.
Its been a couple years, but yet I still love her so. I was not the best. I should've been better for her. Tried harder. I should've..idk..been...more. But I guess I wasn't meant to be all she thought I was. I guess I wasn't her twin flame as she once called me.
It's snowing outside and all I can think of is you. This time of year always brings you to my mind, more so that usual. Some people tell me it's pathetic, to get over it and move on, etc etc but, it's not that easy for me. I wanted to be forever. I wanted all those promises of eternity between us to mean something. And in the end, I just let you down. Let my family and friends down.
I am sorry.
I love you, still, and truthfully, it is a love I fear may never fade from my life, even should I find another. I never knew a feeling like this before, the feeling I had with you all the years we talked and finally, the night we started our lives together. It is a feeling I will cherish for all of my life.
I'm not seeking pity and I know I'll never earn her back, no matter what I do. I can only hope her life brings her happiness and fulfillment and that one day, she finds someone better than me.
Thank you for the memories.
