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Health update

11 years ago

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Not a lot new to report at the moment, but I go see my doctor for another ultrasound tomorrow. Given that the spot where the cyst is located still hurts, and has been hurting off and on for months, I'm going to bet the hormone shots didn't work and the damn thing is still there. Won't know for sure what's going on until he actually takes a look, though.

If that's the case, then I have to convince my doctor that I don't want another shot, and try to get him to yank my damn ovaries out at the very least. I'm tired of feeling lousy, having horrible periods, and being in low level pain all the freaking time. I'm tired of the irritability and the weight gain. I'm also concerned he's going to argue for leaving me as "intact" as possible just in case I might change my mind and want to try and have babies one day.

No. Fuck no.

I am thirty-one years old. My husband has been fixed for a good five years now, at least half our marriage. We do. Not. Want. Biological. Children. I'm past my fertility peak and have no desire to get pregnant or have babies. That isn't going to change. I've read too many stories of women who've had multiple surgeries to remove ovarian cysts, because the damn things will grow right back. I'm not ever going to use these bits for their intended purpose and they're just causing me pain. As it stands, when the current shot wears off I'll likely be right back to horrible periods because birth control didn't do shit to fix it before and I have no reason to believe that's going to change. I just want it all to stop. u.u

Sorry, mostly just venting.

TLDR: being female sucks when your bits malfunction. I'll post an update after my appointment tomorrow when I have a better idea what's going on.

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25 Comments

Anbessa ~anbessa

Anthro Artist

11 years ago

makes oen wonder if they hold the idea of adoption as such a horrible option...

well, good luck, and get well soon, and lets hope they don't waste time arguing with you for a change. *hugs*

zannah ~zannah

I Like Star Wars

11 years ago

I think it's more a concern over losing the natural hormone-producing organs, but yeah, there's always that "but you might change your mind and want to have babies!" argument that irks the hell out of me.

Anbessa ~anbessa

Anthro Artist

11 years ago

understandable. heard the same form many a woman on FA. seems like it's common.

what I never get is why not wanting children is selfish. if it was because "freedom and not having to bother" I could follow. but if it threatens the woman's health? or there simply isn't enough income? isn't it more selfish to demand things form someone else they can't deliver?

OmegaWolf57 ~omegawolf57

Anthro Artist

11 years ago

Here's hoping for the best in the future.

zannah ~zannah

I Like Star Wars

11 years ago

Thanks =)

alexthedragon ~alexthedragon

Writer

11 years ago

*hugs tight for luck*

GlitchFlux ~glitchfluxthewolf

Wolf Makin Friends & Arts

11 years ago

Good luck with that. If the ovaries are the problem, let them be taken out.

zannah ~zannah

I Like Star Wars

11 years ago

I just want to not hurt anymore. u.u

GlitchFlux ~glitchfluxthewolf

Wolf Makin Friends & Arts

11 years ago

mhm. Is the issue still the whole bloody mess thing? Or is it just to pains.
Either way, I feel bad that you have to put up with the issue still... I hope if you do get them removed the issue stops entirely...
**Hugs you**

Zendai ~zendai

Anthro Artist

11 years ago

Well, if your doctor so wants you to stay intact...why not "soothe" him and offer to have your eggs frozen? You can still get pregnant without ovaries, just need your uterus. Then you'd still be free of ovarian pains.

Just a friendly thought. :3

Hope you DO get some relief soon though.

zannah ~zannah

I Like Star Wars

11 years ago

Yeah, I can always bring up that possibility, but I'm never going to use them. u.u There's enough biological time bombs and screwups in both my genetics and the husband's that we decided a long time ago it wasn't a good idea for us to try and have kids.

Zendai ~zendai

Anthro Artist

11 years ago

Right, but it may just make it easier on your doctor's mind.

I know most people, that when they say "I don't want kids", they really don't. :3
And I don't blame ya. xD

So it may just make it easier and less problems for you to deal with. ^_^

ConnorCat ~connorcat

Writer

11 years ago

I intend to get "fixed" as well when I'm able to. But I have similar concerns, that the doc will try and convince me otherwise. And my honest opinion is whether I want children or not and why is nobody else's god damn business. If your doc argues with you on the matter, try to find another one. And again, I empathize with you 100% in a male fashion @_@ I've had two surgeries to fix two different issues affecting the same god damn testicle. Now sometimes my bits get...achey >_< It really isn't fun and I've decided if it happens again, I'm going to tell the doc to just take the fucking thing.

zannah ~zannah

I Like Star Wars

11 years ago

My husband had to do a 30 day waiting period when they scheduled his vasectomy, just in case he changed his mind. 9_9 The state of Virginia (where we lived at the time) required couples under 35 who had no children to wait before any procedure that rendered sterility/infertility, which personally struck me as kind of insulting. Then again, maybe most other people hadn't thought the decision through the way we had? But it's like... Yeah, we want to do this. What do you mean we have to wait to see if we're sure?

ConnorCat ~connorcat

Writer

11 years ago

Yeah :/ I understand the sentiment, but I've told people who made that argument that the major difference is if me and/or my spouse have procedures done to render us sterile, we do have other options if we change our minds. However if a couple has a child that they don't want (which can happen even with proper use of birth control), there are some very limited options, none of which are particularly pleasant to consider.

I mentioned to my mom that I didn't think I wanted kids at any point. She shrugged and said "Well, you're never really ready and you learn to have patience with children when you have them." and I straight up told her "You know, I've lost count of how many times I've heard that and to me, it's the same cute saying as 'People don't own cats, cats own people,' Either you are ready and willing to have kids, or you're not." That kind of stunned her into silence lol

truekaiser ~truekaiser

Writer

11 years ago

Blame the religious fundies for that.
As for me? There are too many damn people so i rather think people should be allowed to have the option at least with no strings attached to outright promoted for people who have no interest in children.
And if they change their mind later? millions of kids worldwide have lost or have been given up by their biological parents, adopt them.

Kaylomei ~therealist

notice me sendpie

11 years ago

Unfortunately there's a much different reason a lot of doctors prefer to keep women, as you put it, "intact." If you do happen to find a doctor willing to remove both of them, you will be on synthetic hormones the rest of your life, which from what I've heard is spotty as far as insurance coverage goes, not to mention very expensive. I've always understood it to be that most doctors who strongly resist or outright reject the idea of bilateral oopherectomy are attempting to avoid the need for giving someone a lifetime supply of synthetic hormones keeping them alive.

As I said a few journal posts of yours back pertaining to this, I wish you the best.

zannah ~zannah

I Like Star Wars

11 years ago

I'm pretty sure the left one, at least, needs to go. The cyst is bigger than the damn ovary, and it hurts all the time. I'm not concerned about insurance. Husband works for the government, so our coverage is about as good as you can get these days (without being rich or a member of congress). If I have endometriosis too, as we suspect, then my body's natural hormones may actually be part of what's causing me pain. In any case, I will be having a long discussion with my doctor tomorrow about how best to proceed.

mwalimu ~mwalimu

Writer

11 years ago

Something to consider... I'm no expert and my knowledge of this is rather rusty, so I would encourage you to check this with more reliable sources, including your doctor, before taking the following as fact. It is my understanding that the ovaries are a primary source of the hormones responsible for a woman's sex drive, and if yours are removed, they may be taking that part of you with them. If that's a part of you you wouldn't want to lose, then discuss whether there is a solution that leaves them at least partially intact (e.g. remove just the one with the cyst). There are other ways to reduce or eliminate your chances of becoming pregnant that don't affect your sex drive.

zannah ~zannah

I Like Star Wars

11 years ago

My sex drive is mostly nonexistent anyway, so I'm not sure I'd actually miss it. Husband can't get me pregnant so that's not really a concern. I just want to stop hurting.