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MFF, Tekko, AC, inactivity
11 years ago
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Hey friends
MFF
So I have been wanting to go to MFF for a while now. I had planned on going when I first heard about it, but due to not being close enough friends with anyone, I didn't have a ride/room. Then those options may have opened up, but then I found out that a school event I need to attend is happening the 5th. So no go. I thought about just driving down friday night and spending Sunday there, but I can't drive that far and it is too big a favor to ask.
So, Ill be there in spirit I guess. Maybe Ill make some badges or something.
Tekko
2015 will be the first time since 2007 that I will not be able to attend my local anime con. I am not a huge fan of anime, but I have a lot of friends that go and I also met a lot of awesome local furs there. It is tradition and something I look forward to every year. This year however, it overlaps with my school's carnival. Another school event I must attend. I was hoping to bring friends to it, but everyone will be at Tekko.
AC
This year's AC I was only able to attend one day due to my family's vacation. Next year, if all goes well, I hope to get a job. Due to me needing a job in animation or something along those lines, I will most likely need to move out of Pittsburgh. Which means AC is out. if I don't get a job, chances are I wont have enough money for AC.
Basically, I feel like I just started finding my place, and now life is kicking me out of it. I have always felt like I was never a part of anything, like I was always second best, or a replacement. The one people only ask if someone else can't do it. All through middle school/high school, I watched my friends have fun but was almost always left out. As if there was a wall between us all the time. I don't have money to go to things, nor do I feel close enough with anyone to ask if I can tag along.
I feel really upset right now, and don't really feel like talking about it. I just really needed to let this out and let you guys know that I may make some gift mff badges for people, and that I am going to get off FA.
If you need to reach me, send me a message on twitter (@vixndwnq), facebook (only people that have it), or email (vixndwnq@gmail).
Ill finish commissions and stuff and upload them,
but I just really need to take a step back.
MFF
So I have been wanting to go to MFF for a while now. I had planned on going when I first heard about it, but due to not being close enough friends with anyone, I didn't have a ride/room. Then those options may have opened up, but then I found out that a school event I need to attend is happening the 5th. So no go. I thought about just driving down friday night and spending Sunday there, but I can't drive that far and it is too big a favor to ask.
So, Ill be there in spirit I guess. Maybe Ill make some badges or something.
Tekko
2015 will be the first time since 2007 that I will not be able to attend my local anime con. I am not a huge fan of anime, but I have a lot of friends that go and I also met a lot of awesome local furs there. It is tradition and something I look forward to every year. This year however, it overlaps with my school's carnival. Another school event I must attend. I was hoping to bring friends to it, but everyone will be at Tekko.
AC
This year's AC I was only able to attend one day due to my family's vacation. Next year, if all goes well, I hope to get a job. Due to me needing a job in animation or something along those lines, I will most likely need to move out of Pittsburgh. Which means AC is out. if I don't get a job, chances are I wont have enough money for AC.
Basically, I feel like I just started finding my place, and now life is kicking me out of it. I have always felt like I was never a part of anything, like I was always second best, or a replacement. The one people only ask if someone else can't do it. All through middle school/high school, I watched my friends have fun but was almost always left out. As if there was a wall between us all the time. I don't have money to go to things, nor do I feel close enough with anyone to ask if I can tag along.
I feel really upset right now, and don't really feel like talking about it. I just really needed to let this out and let you guys know that I may make some gift mff badges for people, and that I am going to get off FA.
If you need to reach me, send me a message on twitter (@vixndwnq), facebook (only people that have it), or email (vixndwnq@gmail).
Ill finish commissions and stuff and upload them,
but I just really need to take a step back.
Maybe try to see what are your priorities. What is more important to you? The carnival or Tekko? Anyway, if you must go at the carnival, try to enjoy it as much as you can!! Unfortunately I don't know the whole situation, so I don't know how much is that important for you.
Talking about AC: if you get a job, it doesn't mean that you won't be able to go there. On the other hand you should be able to have money in order to pay the travel to AC and more stuff!! ^^
And for your last point... I don't know about the others, but no, you're not the one people only ask if someone else can't do it. And I don't know how much this counts, but for me there is nothing that can replace you. We spent together a lot of time and had a lot of fun, especially during the last days, and I wouldn't have gone away with good memories without you. I probably would, but I definitely would have missed something that is very important.
I know that you feel upset, but I even know that you're able to take control of the situation and solve it.
I leave you here with this video, it usually makes me feel better. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=YBGpGhINTa0
And if you will ever need help, I'm here. Just send me a message and I'll answer as soon as possible!! ^^ Stay strong!! I know you can do it!!
I talked to Ryan for a while about it, and he says he will do what he can so that I can attend both Carnival and Tekko. The carnival stuff is mostly in the morning, so I can probs do Tekko in the afternoon.
AC is still up in the air, because I have no idea what my situation will be at that time, but I am trying to be hopeful.
I will try to attend other cons if I can, now that I actually have friends to ride/room with. (Hopefully)
And thanks buddy, my stuff isn't as important as yours (getting a job is a much higher priority than going to a con haha)
but it hits me on an emotional level I guess. (i feel weird saying that)
But I will try to stay in high spirits!
I don't think you can say which one is more important. Truly I'm looking forward to making it at AC next year too. We can just do our best and see what's going to happen!
And don't feel weird for that!! If we prove emotions for things, it means they are important to us!! ^^
As I said, if you'll ever need help, of any kind, I'm here and I'll try to do my best!! *hugs*
I can understand, though. It's a sad feeling, but the fact is, life isn't going to kick you out of this. While I've known you for a short while, I can tell you've made an impact on the people around you, along with the group in Pittsburgh. I hope that doesn't sound weird. The fact is, even if it stops you from going to events, that's not going to kick you out of your friends lives. Life happens, but this is only a small portion of it, right? Even if you need to take a break from cons this upcoming year, maybe you'll be able to come back the next year. Life is rocky, but isn't that what makes life worthwhile in the first place? Because we have the bad, that makes the good actually seem, well, good?
Sorry if I seem a little preachy, it's just that looking at these types of situations from this perspective usually help me through personal problems. So I figured it might help a bit.
and A friend of mine showed me all the animation studios that aren't in CA and FL, so I am more hopeful about being able to be close to home! Of course, I will take whatever job I can, wherever it may be, but if I can, I will try to stay in the area :)
And if I have made an impact, that would make me feel awesome! I have always felt like (insert some sad pathetic invisible little emo kid sounding thing here)
but making an impact makes me feel like i mean something!
haha im so cheesy geh
i'm sorry to hear how down you're feeling.. but i think you should stay positive.
who knows what kinda of job you'll have by AC? maybe it will be something nearby or one that pays well and has vacation time so you can come back to Pittsburgh. you never know c:
and while i understand you are being realistic, i have seen people get some amazing job opportunities that give them a lot of freedom to have fun and travel still, so just don't resign yourself to not being able to do stuff just yet <3
i know i am a very distant person, but i definitely consider you a good friend.
so don't hesitate to talk to me about anything c:
haha I can't hang with Ryan because hes always running around doing boring stuff, and since I want to suit, he definitely wont join me haha. (unless i asked nicely)
But I am going to try and do both carnival and tekko. IDK how it will go, but i will try!
and i hope to get a good job. after i pay off my crazy student loans (yay) i will go to all the cons! if im not old and crippled by then haha
and i consider you a good friend too :)
i am just very bad at keeping in touch haha
And I drive, but I am not driving across states. nuhuh. haha
And remember you can talk to me whenever
ive been going to tekko since 2007, and AC i have been to 3 times, but i have to say that AC is better haha
oh man thats no fun :/
i only can go to the meets if its schenley (which is down the street from me), fernandos (bus ride away), or bowling if someone can pick me up.
i wish i could go to more, but i am quite poor haha
college..