Time to bring myself down to earth and be honest with myself; I've over-exerted myself in the fandom, tried to reach out to as many different outlets and people as I could, and I've now realized that I've lost nearly a lot of chances to do things on a local basis, alienated myself from many people and tried to deny that it wasn't my fault.
Truth be told, I wish I didn't try to push myself into different sections/groups/circles of the fandom but instead kept with the local people I know/knew, done things to make myself feel good about myself and kept in touch with people instead of being distant. Sometimes I don't know what to say, I dislike starting a conversation because I don't know what to say outside of the usual hello/how are you/what you doing - the sort of thing that urks me with people, always saying those three things and never anything else.
It's gotten to the point where I've stopped myself from getting to know people, regretted returning to/joining forums when I know I'll eventually leave without reason, and even stopped going to the local meets because I feel disconnected with most of the attendees.

I've become engrossed in my Yu-Gi-Oh! mail-trading group on Facebook, so engrossed that it's basically my life, it's taken away my time from Twitter and mail-trading has become an addiction that is slowly getting out of control, wanting to become one of the biggest traders in the world when I should be happy that I'm leading one of the biggest mail-trading groups in the world (for UK players, with a scattering of European players).

A good friend mentioned that I had depression, as I was in a rut with life and didn't want to change anything because I was happy in the rut, and since then I've been trying to get myself out of that rut and come the end of the year, while I'm in Glasgow, I'll try to become a new person - using the time between now and then to plan out what I need to do and change.
I know I'm going to be mass-removing people from my Skype contact list, moving to a new Facebook account, and try to keep in contact with those who I want to, keeping Twitter open for everyone to message me (and other places), even trying to draw a line under any misdemeanors I've done in the past and start afresh.

I'm getting to an age in life where I shouldn't be living like a disgruntled teenager, I should be living like a responsible adult, and it's time that I realize this and make a change before I hit the age of 25 next year. I won't be dropping the whole "Sparky15756" shell though, just amending it for the better, as "Sparky" is who I am/want to be - I don't want to be the guy I was around a decade ago and a few years ago.
My sleep schedule is horrible, it's basically sleep at 3am/4am and wake-up anywhere between 12pm and 2pm.

I guess I've finally got this off my chest, needed somewhere to vent all of this to.