Have you ever just felt as though your art isn't good enough, despite seeing improvement in your skill?
Have you ever just told yourself not to compare yourself and your talents negatively to other artists?
Have you ever just went back to look at recent or old artwork that you've submitted and pinpointed mistakes here and there, thinking to yourself "Gee, no wonder I don't have X amount of watchers or X amount of favorites because of this mistake and that mistake..."

Well...

I've always heard the phrase "You are your own worst critic" floating about and sometimes I cannot help but challenge if it's actually true or only partially true. If it is true..then I cannot help but wonder how I can tackle the monsters who make up that fear/anxiety and depression always nagging me into thinking that I'm not going to get anywhere when it comes to my art or talents in general. I wish I was the type of person who could look at her fursona with pride and say "Gosh. I created that. That's me...ME...THAT is who I signify."

And to the bullies of my past...

I hope you are happy with degrading my sense of self in the ways in which feel almost impossible to build back up over the scars you left behind. I gain compliments and acceptance and yet you still haunt me..this flinching urge to deny all the good and hopeful things people say to me about me. Would you be rejoicing in knowing you did this to me? Or should I fight to just prove everything you said to me over the seven years I went to junior high and high school about me being ugly or the focal point of your jokes wrong? To tell myself that you are foolish and ignorant and not worthy of my tears, time, and pain?

To my beloved friends and loved ones...

I don't think I'd be here if it weren't for you. I don't think I'd have the strength to put up with life's stresses and the world in general if not for you standing by me. You've proven constantly that I've something to live for, fight for, and remain persistent for. Not particularly the skills or talents I possess...but for the means of self-expression. You being the beautiful and beloved individuals within my life who mold me into who I am currently. It's because of you that when I look in the mirror and get the instinctual feeling of immediately looking away...that the thought of you tells me to look again and deeper. Thank you so much for everything. You've definitely left traces within my heart that I hope the tides and storms of life never wash away~ <3333

Rant over. 8D