Okay, so yes, I usually roll my eyes on here when I find a journal that is all emo and stuff, but as of today I will roll the eyes no more because I have got to get some crap out, and here is the only place that I feel safe doing so.

I don't like games, I don't like wasting my time, so if you actually WANT to be my friend, then please do so. But if I'm annoying to you, or you just plain do NOT like me, then please don't invite me to shit. I know that the one who actually did the inviting is the only one is actually my real friend, but come on, we are not in high school. You are perfectly capable of saying "well, actually please don't invite her, because we all really don't like her and it would kinda make us all uncomfortable." I'm not THAT sensitive, if I'm not wanted, I don't go, simple. But if you thought you were trying to spare my feelings, you failed. How can I not get the hint that I am not wanted, when somehow I keep ending up in a room with only the one friend? How can I not get the hint when I SEE that everyone has only had one or two drinks, but they are all acting as if they had drank a keg. Note, you are BAD actors btw.

But most of all, next time you get the urge to attempt to spare my feelings to my face but not behind my back, please don't. The friend the we happen to share is the one who is getting hurt. Not me. She is the one who cried last night. She is the one who is miserable, she cares about me AND all of you, even if you do act like self centered jerks. So maybe if you feel like venting about me, go elsewhere okay? Because you will lose her friendship and she may resent ME for losing you. And honestly, I'm mourning the LAST one I lost today on the anniversary of his death and I've realized I can't afford to lose another friend.