Hello FA I feel as though you are always neglected but FA happens to be probably the only place I feel comfortable talking about certain things! Aint that odd?

Well as of yesterday 11/28/14 I have decided to slowly transition to a male. So, FtM.

It's been a heavy thought since I was young but I was always afraid to fully "take the plunge".

It's been 2 years now since I have been out of Highschool and I want to go further with this decision I've been struggling for so long with.

As of now most of my friends look at me as androgynous. I rarely refer to my gender and they've used it scarcely. I'm also included in both "guys night out" and girls night.

I'm not sure I can handle the full change in all honesty. After talking and planning all these years I had come to the conclusion no matter what I choose I would never be fully satisfied and I'd always feel as though something was missing.

So what this means moving forward is I'm going to take it slow! I don't want to rush my already problematic family into this and neither with my peers both Co-workers and friends.

Being androgynous already I have a small wardrobe to my liking which I will invest in more.
I will also be investing in a binder and get comfortable with my body to decided in the future whether or not to have my breasts removed.
I will also be getting a hair cut once my binder comes in <3
I have begun changing my voice
and I will begin to see a doctor for my body condition in hopes to get me to not only gain weight but some muscle too.

I only hope I get all the support I can get and for once be happy, confident, and comfortable with how I portray myself and my body to others.

Thank you, it feels nice to get this off my chest. <3

PS: Bought my first Bad Dragon toy yesterday unf I'm excited ty black friday