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30/11/2014 (Hating myself...)
11 years ago
[Good stuff of the week]
not much, just that I met my second SA furry, it was great he is a good guy fun to talk to and if I dare say so, kind of cute.... so that was all...
[Bad Stuff of the week]
lets start at the beginning with a shit lot of bad things. first was when my parents scolded me, but this one was way different, the biggest point was when my mother told me she rather see me dead... that actually pushed me right to the edge, to the point where I had a gun in my hand.... but I knew that there must be something or someone out there that will make my life better... and the biggest upset to me was when I when to meet my furry friend.... he kept saying for weeks that he wanted to tell me something big.... BUT i was a DUMB shy FUCK not to ask him the right thing and I kept on babbling on not even giving him a chance to as me some things that he wanted to know..... So my week went from bad to worse to absolutely shit...... and the coming week doesn't look good too....
not much, just that I met my second SA furry, it was great he is a good guy fun to talk to and if I dare say so, kind of cute.... so that was all...
[Bad Stuff of the week]
lets start at the beginning with a shit lot of bad things. first was when my parents scolded me, but this one was way different, the biggest point was when my mother told me she rather see me dead... that actually pushed me right to the edge, to the point where I had a gun in my hand.... but I knew that there must be something or someone out there that will make my life better... and the biggest upset to me was when I when to meet my furry friend.... he kept saying for weeks that he wanted to tell me something big.... BUT i was a DUMB shy FUCK not to ask him the right thing and I kept on babbling on not even giving him a chance to as me some things that he wanted to know..... So my week went from bad to worse to absolutely shit...... and the coming week doesn't look good too....
The next four days look like a mountain to me too. I'm not looking forward to it at all.
As for the rest, don't take it to mind. I've had a few people say I'd be better off dead, and I believed them for a while. But then I realized: I'm my own person, only I may decide what's best for me, and being dead definitely isn't it. I also figured that there's some reason for me to be around. While I haven't entirely found it yet, I make it my goal to find it.
And don't fret too much about whatever something big it was. People forget or do not get an opportunity, it happens. I've forgotten to say or do something countless times. Don't blame it on yourself. There will be more occasions for you to find out whatever it was, as long as you don't do something drastic of course. :P
So yeah, just take a deep breath, stay calm, and tell yourself that you'll get through it! :D