Ever since I was emotionally crushed and beaten for no good apparent reason as I became single, I can't listen to Owl City anymore..p~q

But I want to so bad. But all of his songs were adorable little love songs that I always would relate to me. And now none of it means anything and I feels like I'm drowning myself in my past emotions when I listen to it. But GOD DAMN I LOVE HIS MUSIC I don't know really what to do.

I just get all sad when I listen to it, regardless of whether or not I'm over this whole situation by now, which I am. I feel alive. I feel like i have my life back. I literally feel like I woke up from the dead and its just awesome, but then stupid little things like this try to ruin my mood. >~<