This is weird. I have been depressed for several reasons lately. First of all, I won't be attending MFF. I said it wasn't my favorite con in an earlier journal, but that doesn't mean I don't like to go to it still.

Second, I feel like I've been making less of an effort lately to connect with people outside of my apartment (meaning everyone aside from my dragon).

Third, I think I am being overcome by greed. If I don't see some sort of profit in doing something then I stop doing it. I have recently been playing a lot less MTG, for example, because well...that reason was in one of my previous journals as well. Dropping paychecks on boxes of cards and all that.

The dragon keeps trying to bring me out of this state of mind, but some days I feel like this is the only way I want to feel. Its an odd cycle. Half of the week, I feel happy and carefree and then the other half I want to have a completely new life. I wish I could move up to Minnesota where I got to know a lot of new peeps from Furry Migration. I wish it wouldn't take so long to find a better paying job than the one I have right now.

But then I also have to take the dragon into consideration. He has his new job and I have not yet been with him a year. I am learning that I have to be a lot more stationery and sacrifice a lot to be with him. I just didn't know I'd be doing so much learning.

I guess I just have to accept where I am right now and hope that somehow this all changes for the better.