So, here is a question that I have been thinking about for a while. I have been looking at this massive writer's block for a long time, and I was too stressed to climb it for a long time, since the passing of my dad. I need to recuperate, but around every corner, there's something else that stresses me. More issues with family, more fear of losing everything we have, no time to properly mourn. I can say that it's all been too much for me, and writing was rightfully placed on the back burner while I worked on getting more energy to just do stuff.

Sure, I know, some of authors don't believe that a writer's block even exist, yadda yadda, I should just get off my ass and force myself to write, but, you know, screw that. Stress is seriously debilitating, let alone the migraines I am getting pretty much once a month.

That is not to say I don't want to get back into writing around the end of this year. I think I am ready to scale this humongous cliff of a block, but before I do that, I need some feedback on this.

Does Joey's story need a complete rewrite?

I have been thinking this over and over. I definitely don't want the entire story scrapped, but to be completely honest, looking at the writing, it feels more like a draft, and it needs some serious reworking before I can be satisfied with it. Hell, the story that currently exists definitely didn't hold true to its original concept. I wanted it to be a series of short, somewhat childhood adventury stories to give Joey some character. It was going to be cool, zany, slice of lifey, no deep underlying messages. Yeah, well, that didn't work out as intended.

So, when I did end up writing it, I got tangled up with all kinds of stupid subject matters I wanted to bring up: traditional family values, morality, religion, bullying; and I feel like I handled them poorly from the start, and they require a redo to give these topics the respectful platform they deserve. Right now, more than a year after, I've become more literate, more aware of my own writing, and I know I could do better.

I am kind of inclined to scrap or delete the first three chapters, and start the story over under some new title, but only if I can be sure that would be the right thing. I don't want to lose the premise of the story. I don't want to ditch all of the characters. I don't want to ditch the general idea of this story, but it needs to be torn down and rebuilt to make it work.

So...yeah, that's it really. I'm ranting about shit I should have taken care of months ago, but now I just don't know. Is the writing really bad, immature maybe? Does it require a redo?