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You know what I just realized?
11 years ago
I really don't fit in anywhere, like, not only am I socially awkward, but I really have no special skills worth mentioning on any of these artistic related sites. I'm on Furaffinity, DeviantArt, used to be on Inkbunny until I realized how fucked up people are on there, (People that draw the equivalent of child porn are apparently more respected than I am... X.x) Not trying to sound conceited or anything. Anyways, I should quit rambling. I'm not good at anything artistic, I can't draw to save my life, I can't sing or write music, I can't write stories or anything like that too. I can't make jewelry either, hell I wanted to get into gem faceting and people are telling me not to do it.
All people have ever told me is "Don't waste your life doing that shit. You're too stupid and awkward to pull that off." etc. Well, I'm sorry I'm not good enough or popular enough for you. Yeah, I'm not good at a lot of things. I constantly mess everything up. As much as I hate it, it's who I am. People don't understand that even stuff that may sound harmless at the time can have long lasting negative effects. I take all insults personally even when I shouldn't. I just can't help it though. I constantly have this need to want to be liked by everyone and its NOT FUCKING POSSIBLE! Yet, why do I keep trying to please people?
This is where I'm lucky I have friends. We've already been over the fact I'm not good at virtually anything, yet these select few persons choose to stick around and still talk to me. Even though there are only two or three that I talk to on a semi-regular basis, I am thankful for all of the people I have had the chance to meet and hang out with in my life. They put up with my crazy talk about rocks and ponies and who the hell knows what else. Please excuse my stupid bad grammar because I have been cleaning since about 11:30pm and it is now 2:19am as I am typing this. I also want to let people know, if I have done wrong to you, I am truly sorry. I may be all over the place in this journal but my mind is racing with stuff I thought I locked away forever. I'm feeling emotions that I never wanted to feel again. I am going to leave for a little while. Where will I go? Even I can't answer that. I feel the need to stay away from people but then I'm back to square one with feeling alone.
This is how I suffer every moment of my day. I keep feeling like I bother people so I leave and eventually they just leave me. I'm a fucking terrible person... XD... ._.
Regardless, if you feel the need to talk to me, I am available on here, DeviantArt, and wow that's about it. My Deviantart name is the same as my name here if you were interested in looking.
I love you all, and I don't say that lightly. You are all such amazing, beautiful people. Never forget that.
AnthemTheMalamutt
All people have ever told me is "Don't waste your life doing that shit. You're too stupid and awkward to pull that off." etc. Well, I'm sorry I'm not good enough or popular enough for you. Yeah, I'm not good at a lot of things. I constantly mess everything up. As much as I hate it, it's who I am. People don't understand that even stuff that may sound harmless at the time can have long lasting negative effects. I take all insults personally even when I shouldn't. I just can't help it though. I constantly have this need to want to be liked by everyone and its NOT FUCKING POSSIBLE! Yet, why do I keep trying to please people?
This is where I'm lucky I have friends. We've already been over the fact I'm not good at virtually anything, yet these select few persons choose to stick around and still talk to me. Even though there are only two or three that I talk to on a semi-regular basis, I am thankful for all of the people I have had the chance to meet and hang out with in my life. They put up with my crazy talk about rocks and ponies and who the hell knows what else. Please excuse my stupid bad grammar because I have been cleaning since about 11:30pm and it is now 2:19am as I am typing this. I also want to let people know, if I have done wrong to you, I am truly sorry. I may be all over the place in this journal but my mind is racing with stuff I thought I locked away forever. I'm feeling emotions that I never wanted to feel again. I am going to leave for a little while. Where will I go? Even I can't answer that. I feel the need to stay away from people but then I'm back to square one with feeling alone.
This is how I suffer every moment of my day. I keep feeling like I bother people so I leave and eventually they just leave me. I'm a fucking terrible person... XD... ._.
Regardless, if you feel the need to talk to me, I am available on here, DeviantArt, and wow that's about it. My Deviantart name is the same as my name here if you were interested in looking.
I love you all, and I don't say that lightly. You are all such amazing, beautiful people. Never forget that.
AnthemTheMalamutt