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Sweet Dreams Are Made Of This
16 years ago
I'm waiting for the day I feel a natural emotion.
Ok. So, I went to visit 
xxpeekabooxx, we had fun times, watched a bunch of movies
I FINALLY watched 300. I was pretty tipsy. And honestly... ... ... It was ok. Not great. Whatevah.
Lol @ the delicious wheat XD
Now, for something a little more serious. I ran out of my medication a few weeks ago... and I'm not sure if I should go back on it, or just try to tough it out. Yes, I am depressed, it's pretty bad since I'm still a lonely emo-bastard, but I don't want to be dependent on them for the rest of my life. I've been having strange thoughts... but.. I dunno. Maybe I'll go to a psychiatrist.
What do you guys think? Should I tough it out or go back on them?
I'm working on a picture, I'm really proud of it, I can't wait until its done.
I might be getting oC again if xxpeekabooxx's copy of it works on my comp, so if it does work, anyone wanna oC?
I'm still all drowsy from the drive hahaha.
My Xbox360 died on me, I've been using one of my housemates for a bit, but it still sucks.
I'm replaying Fallout 3. Shit I missed a lot of stuff.
I'm pumped for going to Mindless Self Indulgence.
I've also got a ticket to see Soilwork... are they any good? I only bought the ticket because Swallow the Sun is playing with them.
And then this summer I'm going to both Vancouver and Calgary's Warped Tour. I'm excited to camp out with all the punks in the parking lot again!
xxpeekabooxx, we had fun times, watched a bunch of moviesI FINALLY watched 300. I was pretty tipsy. And honestly... ... ... It was ok. Not great. Whatevah.
Lol @ the delicious wheat XD
Now, for something a little more serious. I ran out of my medication a few weeks ago... and I'm not sure if I should go back on it, or just try to tough it out. Yes, I am depressed, it's pretty bad since I'm still a lonely emo-bastard, but I don't want to be dependent on them for the rest of my life. I've been having strange thoughts... but.. I dunno. Maybe I'll go to a psychiatrist.
What do you guys think? Should I tough it out or go back on them?
I'm working on a picture, I'm really proud of it, I can't wait until its done.
I might be getting oC again if
xxpeekabooxx's copy of it works on my comp, so if it does work, anyone wanna oC?I'm still all drowsy from the drive hahaha.
My Xbox360 died on me, I've been using one of my housemates for a bit, but it still sucks.
I'm replaying Fallout 3. Shit I missed a lot of stuff.
I'm pumped for going to Mindless Self Indulgence.
I've also got a ticket to see Soilwork... are they any good? I only bought the ticket because Swallow the Sun is playing with them.
And then this summer I'm going to both Vancouver and Calgary's Warped Tour. I'm excited to camp out with all the punks in the parking lot again!
At least is better than Transformers =P
I... didn't mind Transformers. Not the greatest movie ever, but... robots are cool. Didn't like the story so much. And why did only the black robot die?
what I found more hilarious was the Cirque du soleil freak that was the persian king XXXD I mean, I know is fantasy and all but STILL!
Very tall though... and he had anti-eyebrows, which are stupid piercings.
... I really want to see the Cirque Du Soliel... my roommate has a mask made by one of the companies that makes masks for them :P
yeah I do want to see it too so far I have only seen one show on TV but is not the same
I want to see it live... I should become a contortionist and join them :D
I wish I still could... that could come in handy...
and thats how it would come in handy. If somebody tried to mug me, all I have to do is do that and they run away screaming while I chase them foaming at the mouth
As for the medicin I say try and go without. I mean.. I know how difficult it may be but its well worth it when you dont have to count on it anymore. I hope what ever you decide you get to feeling better ;-;
I will send my OC to ya when ever ya want it xD But only if you OC with me.. x3
hmmm... send it via emails??
Also, is it being run in XP mode or whatever its called?
second of all(i cannot STRESS this enough). go back on your meds. right now. don't wait. don't "tough it out." i tried to do that last year. i felt okay for a month or two, next thing i know, i'm a total douche bag to my coworkers(my boss made me take a week off for vacation and call a therapist right in front of her). all i ever thought about was how great it would be to off myself. (okay, we all feel like that from time to time-but you shouldn't have those thoughts 24/7). i don't want to sound like a nagging parent, you really are making a mistake. you're starting to post your awesome art again, and your still so damn young. *hugs*
I'm doing a Warped Tour Tour, going to Vancouver and then Calgary. My friend suggested it and said he would pay for both tickets and chip for gas, so I obliged :P. 3oh!3's playing again?!?! Sweet! Now I only need to learn how to dance...
And as for toughing it out... I still don't know what I'm going to do. I'm waiting for my family to get back from their vacation to discuss it with them, and also planning on going to a psych to talk about it.
I was actually thinking of offing myself a lot in the last days of taking them, just all that same old bullshit got to me. It's not that I want to die, I'm sick of feeling the way that I do. And that was on the pills.
I'm really concerned about one thing, I've been having... very... violent thoughts ever since I stopped taking them.
*hugs back*