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just a life update I guess (mental illness talk tw)
10 years ago
Hey guys, I guess I kinda dropped off the face of the planet for a while oops.
My bad.
So uh basically you didn't really miss much. I kind of underwent a series of breakdowns as my depression and anxiety got the better of me and I kind of lived in a fog of sad and loss of motivation to do anything except study/ schoolwork and wallow in my sadness and wonder if I would get better. I mean, there were moments of clarity where things were alright but for the most part I was pretty horrible.
So props to my partner for being the best and supporting me as much as he could!
Basically I think I'm starting to get better? I want to be alive for the first time in a long time and I feel so thankful to have people around me. I'm not saying I'm perfect, I mean I still have moments where I break down and/or get stuck in a rut of sad and despair.
Oh and I've relapsed a few times re: self harm so that went terribly.
BUT I'M KINDA BETTER MAYBE???
I got to the clinic the other day to make sure my lungs weren't fucking up since I keep hacking up phlegm and being generally gross, but it seems to be that my sinuses are the cause. I have medicine and a netipot to use now so we'll see how that goes I guess.
thanks a ton for staying supportive and hangin' around, I promise I'm trying to get more active and get into the swing of drawing more!
My bad.
So uh basically you didn't really miss much. I kind of underwent a series of breakdowns as my depression and anxiety got the better of me and I kind of lived in a fog of sad and loss of motivation to do anything except study/ schoolwork and wallow in my sadness and wonder if I would get better. I mean, there were moments of clarity where things were alright but for the most part I was pretty horrible.
So props to my partner for being the best and supporting me as much as he could!
Basically I think I'm starting to get better? I want to be alive for the first time in a long time and I feel so thankful to have people around me. I'm not saying I'm perfect, I mean I still have moments where I break down and/or get stuck in a rut of sad and despair.
Oh and I've relapsed a few times re: self harm so that went terribly.
BUT I'M KINDA BETTER MAYBE???
I got to the clinic the other day to make sure my lungs weren't fucking up since I keep hacking up phlegm and being generally gross, but it seems to be that my sinuses are the cause. I have medicine and a netipot to use now so we'll see how that goes I guess.
thanks a ton for staying supportive and hangin' around, I promise I'm trying to get more active and get into the swing of drawing more!
I hope things get better for you!!!!
Feeling lost and sad and just DROWNING in depression is such an intense shitty feeling.
I'm really happy you've survived through so much and that your partner was a bro and helped you out too!!!
I just want you to be better ugh you're great and seeing you trapped underneath so much is so upsetting and infuriating.
I really don't know why depression and anxiety think they need to exist but they fucking don't and they need to gtfo.
Please recover soon!!!!! T^T
Thank you so much, that means so much to me!
Anxiety and depression are terrible I would not wish them on anyone.
Still I think I'm getting better slowly but surely! <3
You're such a sweetie, thank you so much for your kind words! <3 <3 <3