The 5 songs I use to make my self feel better or even worse when I am sad are (they go from worst feels to best. -Please listen to the 5 I put up and maybe put up your 5 songs, with links if possible and why these songs make you feel that way.-

1. Heart Moving https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=65vu8HenkQw

It is just the music and lyrics that force upon me a sad feeling, I am not sure why though.

2. Saying Goodbye https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KNfHU748SYQ

This one is probably the worst, it is what I would call my suicide song, the one I would listen to as i am doing whatever it is I was doing to end the pain, as they say.

3. Realeza https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kAAsqVuOF3g

This is another where I just do not understand why it makes me feel so sad, but it does.

4. A stray child https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O2La7UHRoR0

This song reminds me of my childhood, always alone emotionally... a stray child.

5. In the land of twilight, under the moon https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g-9lKKvMwAE

In this song it the lyrics

"now you are watchin' us outside the circle
wanna be in the company
boy, but you are lonely
dance with nobody
run away child, to your hiding place"

Those words are more or less the story of what has been the case every time I have tried to join in with others in their endeavors, conversations or activities. I get rebuffed and then i run away to my hiding place, which is a land of total darkness, silence and no hope of anything, but solitude...forever.