Forced to ask for anyone to please help..

I know it's probably a bad time but I still really need to catch up on bills so I can build a new PC, I can't keep repairing this thing, it's almost a decade old and causing lots of complications. >_<

A few months ago 2 people helped some, it was enough to repair this and replace a couple drives so I can back-up data again and be able to move them to a new PC. But I need more parts to construct a better one.

In short - need some occasional tips/donations, plus opinions on slightly old but reliable PC components.. would be nice if I knew how those things like wishlists work so I could order parts one at a time at the times I can track the damn things.


Answers to likely questions:

I preferred the old days when money wasn't a problem, but my hobbies like drawing cost me time and money now. I can't continue without occasional help.

Everything I make IRL goes to bills, and that's often insufficient.. thank you ISP monopolies.

Doing as many commissions as I can but this machine literally stalls out most of the time and I cramp my hands alot fixing errors in pics because I'm not really that efficient at art.

Contrary to popular belief people tend not to donate much, on average I've been getting about 30 a month total, but was in clusters like about a hundred total 2 or 3 times a year, though recently someone has been helping with some of the emergencies & medical issues so it's been increasing, but fallout from problems I couldn't fix are increasing too..
I can't put all that stress on one person.

I seem to fall behind twice a year and I know it's pathetic, but I'm maxed out. I can't simply take up more extra odd jobs that don't exist and the ones I can get interfere with art.
Plus there's nothing else to cut , I haven't bought myself a gift in several years, food budget is less than minimal, and I have several other important things that need repair but couldn't.

One has been helping but that forces me to choose between bills, medical treatment and emergencies, there's no safety zone.

Mail service out here is crap so I tend to have to monitor & catch shipments since they fuck up 60% of the time, including damage. (so I sometimes get them at a store instead)
Plus can't accept new expensive gifts because some certain landlord-like relatives can force me to sell them (again).

Started to make a bit of progress on dealing with some probs so I can help myself more but one major setback could destroy that effort for now.


Doesn't all have to be now, but I'm not sure how long I can hang in the red here..

Yeah yeah yeah, tiny violin & shit. But its up to any of you if you want me to keep going or not.

Thanks for reading, not sure if anyone will help here either though.