ive been told not to drive or make important decisions until im clear headed again. even without the painkillers i seem to be in a weird daze. ive been trying very hard to uphold that rule... semi-successfully. ive avoided buying things that "seemed like a good idea at the time". have not been able to avoid sexually harassing 80% of the girls i know. but now that its christmas eve and i lye here broken and alone. i miss things and some one who i shouldnt. and by "broken and alone" its very loose meaning. i am thankful for my family and friends that helped me out during this past year from hell. you are all awesome and i couldnt have done it without you.

*upward mood swing*

so i wish you all the best christmas, saternallia, zombie jesus day, fuckday, or what ever you want to celebrate!

on the "broken" side of things the pain in my back seems to be localizing around my incision. and yes "incision" the bitches cut me. they said they wernt going to but first time i changed my bandages there is a nice 4" long incision in the middle of my lower back. *shakes fist* but yea thats healing. im getting alittle bit of strength back. still have a week left on my "no riding in the car" and 2 weeks left on my "no sex" though one of those seem alot more likely then the other.

a favor. im still on the look out for some thing cute to defile or something already defiled that i can scheme with. the last of my brandings have been removed. so no confusion on who i belong to. NOONE! muhaha send me your sacrificial bunnies!


MURRY CHRISTMAS EVERY ONE!