Moral question here... Am I a womanizer? Or am I just a kind person who likes to think about sex and talk weirdly with women? Am I a bad person or am I a sexist? I mean... I know that in my future I want a wife who can hold her own against me in shooter games that I like, pokemon, and maybe owns a gun of her own, and loves animals, but not quite a vegan... I want someone who'll also be able to silence the demons inside, maybe curb my sexual desires and even kick me into line when I pop out of my line of being naughty, and sometimes embrace it... But I can be a player sometimes and it bothers me that I talk to all these beautiful women, some I would just plain love to be friends with, some I would love to please in damn near anyway, and some I would love to take to a bed with me, cuddle, fuck and sleep with... Maybe I'm just tired, maybe im having a mood swing of sorts, maybe insomnia is getting to me again with the music on my iPhone, maybe all this wanting a relationship with almost anybody and everybody has me here baring my heart for those who care, and to those even who want to stab me still after years passed... Might have a few nutjobs watchin me who will mean me harm, physical and mental pain. I dunno, but for those friends who care to read, comment, whatever; I don't mean harm to any woman, aside from those who mean me harm. I mean no harm, I just want to feel... Human, having grown up a loner, a lonely person who knew few faces, and knows so little except fear and distress and how to cloak myself.
I'm sorry. Going to bed in a few minutes. Will probably make a new journal in the morning wheni get some insight.