Enabled account again
11 years ago
Well, i don't really know why am i doing this. These past experiences really hit me and made me take this decision of leaving. Am i too weak and can't stand my own word like a real man? Or it's just that i miss the affection and appreciation i used to get here? Why am i the one who always have to give in and sacrifice justice for friendship? I know what i did and i did it because it's about self-respect (all my life always being a coward and let people to step on me, this is the only place where i can be brave and say what i really think) and these people who hit me did wrong, absolutely. But these people and my friends are on their side and move on like if nothing happened, how should i feel about it? What should i do?
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The thing is that all my friends are still sticked to the people who did hurt me, they don't wanna lose their friendship. They are not with me, don't agree with me, but they say they're neutral. There are many interests involved which make them go on their favor and not with me. Of course there is nothing weak about having true friends who support. But the problem is that i have NONE of these true friends. It's easy to say "I support you" but their actions (or lack of them) say otherwise.
I can't quite say that much as I've just been a watcher, but I would suggest maybe working on your self-confidence a bit. We all need a bit of help with that sometimes and it sounds like that's what you're needing right now.
Here is the only place where i can really express myself and say what i really think about people. Here is where i can have my self-steem and self-respect very high, and not letting people to step on me, i don't care if this person is damn awesome with drawing skills and nicely sociable with thousands of followers and watchers who keep in touch with them, if he hurts me, i talk with them directly, if i see there is nothing to do about it i simply cut the relationship. But what happens? The rest of my friends who worship these people don't think i'm right and they still befriend them, but they say they're neutral just to keep both friendships: Mine and these people's. These people will NEVER apologize about what they did to me, that's for sure. So this is the point where i see myself not really supported by those who claim to be my friends. And have to give in. IRL this is basically me, have always to give in and sacrifice my beliefs in justice for their friendship so everybody is happy. Why i can't just have one for the first time? Why i can't have they sacrificing their beliefs, their pride, in order of keeping my frienship? That's the problem. And so here i am, enabling my account again like if nothing happened, smiling and being nice to everybody, if they're happy i'm happy. But my happiness have been always in second place IRL. Not here. But it seems that i will have to be the IRL me here too.
If they "did you wrong" they weren't friends to begin with. The best course of action is to follow suit and move on. It will take time, but the wounds will heal eventually.
I think i was not clear at that point, sorry. I mean that my friends are on the bad people's side.
I have absolutely no idea what went down here, but if you need to talk, hit me up anytime.
A person who doesn't deal with the world outside is a coward, or at least that's what i think. But that's not the point, the thing is i got all of this for just being myself. Being myself only brought me unhappiness.
Ahota te contacte en twitter y me pare porque tampoco quiero ser molesto o encimoso. Lo que diste a entender es que tenias problemas de trabajo y por eso quitabas tu personaje un tiempo. Eso es comun en este mundillo pues pocos han podido meter su personaje en el mundo laboral. Como no sabes, si cerre mi cuenta en DA y un par de meses abri otra. Pensaba que nadie le intersaria y resulta que al menos unas 3 o 4 personas si les interesa saber que me paso. Asi que no se puede decir que a nadie le importa uno.
Con tus amigos simplemente pon las cosas claras, ¿Estas con x perosna? Pues adios y chau. Tu vales mucho como para pensar que si X persona se lleva a tus amigos ya no eres nada. Si ellos no te valoran, ni fueron tus amigos.
Y me alegra que regresaras de nuevo, ya extrañaba al dragon rojo ;) (que eres un lagarto pero hey pareces dragon XD )
Si crees que esto es malo, imaginate este escenario: Furry X estudiante de diseño nadie lo conoce y me hago amigo de el porque dibuja mechas con lobos adentro. Pasan los años y me quiebro financieramente para enviar regalos a Singapur cada año y el tio no envia nada. Un dia me deja colgado en ICQ y desde ahi solo me pela para pedirme favores. Se gradua el furry X y trabaja en animacion, BOOM! Se hace popufur y todos lo adoran, empieza a hacer porno y comics porno. Y que hace el tio conmigo? Me envia una caja con baratijas de anime, me dice que mi amistad no vale nada para el y que me busque un amigo tan LOOSER como yo porque le da verguenza que vean que soy su amigo ahora que los furris japoneses ya son sus amigos.
Me dolio, como no te imaginas. Solo me uso mientras se hacia popular y despues me tiro como un kleenex a la calle. Asi es la gente, y asi sera. No veo tu cara, eres desechable. Ahi anda el desgraciado en convenciones, pues como me "pago" mi amistad no le debo nada. De lo que el me envio TODO esta en la basura, pues era basura desde que lo compro con esa intencion.
No quiero decirte "pobre de mi me fue peor", digo "a todos nos pasa. Que los Dios lo perdone, porque yo solo lo podria perdonar pero nunca olvidar lo que el me hizo a mi". Y seguir adelante, irse es darles la victoria a los bastardos. Y gracias por el aviso, si te lo hacen a ti se lo hacen a todos tomo nota de los nombres.
Y no cambies, mejor que digan que eres un hijo de ?#@ a ser un penitente.
You've got real friends that can help you out, and I along with everyone else will be happy to help.
At this point i feel alone, nobody is with me really. My friends only say they support me, but they don't wanna do anything about it: "As long as this artist treats me good, i'm okay" But well, I can't do anything about it. They won (they always do) and my friends and everybody is happy.
And I noticed you said to another user that being yourself brings unhappiness, that is not true at all, not being yourself is what brings you unhappiness, being yourself is what brings you genuine happiness.
And these people who are still being friends with this guy who hurt you, they're not your friends in the end, they're brown nosers, people who latch on to try and get something out of this guy, please don't let them ruin your experience here, if you need someone to talk to, you've got plenty of friends who'll happily talk to you.
Puede que no sea la persona ideal para decir esto, pero si me alegra que regresaras y no dejar que la influencia de unos afecte con todos los demás.
más o menos me doy cuenta de quienes fueron. Me ha pasado lo mismo.. o más bien aún me pasa.
Sé que no somos casi amigos >_< pero Esfuérzate y se valiente!
Imita lo bueno, no lo malo :)
No permitas que te pisoteen, si te es posible quédate en paz con los que puedas.
Dios te bendiga.
Asi soy yo, asi siempre he sido. Siempre digo la verdad, fui bastante bien educado en ese sentido. Pero parece ser que a veces la gente no se la cree conocer a alguien asi. Y es cuando surgen los problemas. Pero pues ya que se le va a hacer.
yeah i know, some things are about to change.