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Just need someplace to vent..
10 years ago
Hey to whoever is kind to read this, heck I'll be lucky if anyone ever stumble upon this, but like the title.. I just need some place to vent.. even if there is only a small chance that someone would ever see this, so here goes:
I've been rather down lately, and sure, most of the time I've been able to brush it aside with some distractions but whenever I have an event that is not favorable, I feel down, very down. I've been coping with it rather decently then, but now.. thats why I'm here, expressing my depression.. my .. loneliness to a website with only a small possibility of someone reading it, but hey! Better than keeping it in, right?
I'm actually living with someone special, a mate you can say it. Yet.. I can't help to feel all so lonely.. its .. depressing.. Sure, you can tell me to go talk to her about it, but the thing is.. she's seems to be frequently busy.. and being a strong uni-tasker, she gets utterly stressed if I ever came to her talking whenever she is working on her computer.
Something similiar happened before as well, you see, I've never been in a furry convention before but the time she brought me to one? I was so happy, eager and nervous. Going to a FurCon with your special one is indeed great especially when its your first, yes? But not for me, she.. unfortunately was part of the staff for the FurCon and was so occupied from pre-con till post-con .. leaving me all alone.. while I stare at other furs laughing along with their buddies and mates. When I confront her about it, she got very upset, going on about "So you want me to quit my job that I've been wanting to do for so long?". For fuck's sake, ofcourse not, I just.. wanted her to make an effort to come see me and spend some time with me! Not just.. for a few minutes before she crashes onto the bed..
That was then.. now she is busy with a big task of building a website for furries which I think is a great idea.. just wished she would.. take it easy about it and not be so .. focused.. and stressed about it.. her mind was almost constantly about the website.. and when she starts working on it? Boy.. she takes hours and sometimes even a whole day! Leaving me.. all ..lonely.. despite living under the same roof.. We used to spend majority of our time playing games and it was blissful.. but I guess everything has to come at an end, huh?..
Maybe.. just maybe.. I could find someone here who is willing to provide me with some company when I'm down and lonely? .. I hope my situation gets better before I need such though..
ANYWAYS, I feel a little better from writing this here, to those who really read the whole thing.. thank so very much, I mean it. I don't usually do this as I prefer to be the listening ear but .. I needed this. I would express my gratitude with a big hug and a kiss on the forehead if you fancy it! Have a great week! ^^
EDIT: You know.. maybe I should write a story whenever I'm feeling down again, then I'll post it here for you guys and girls to read! :3
I've been rather down lately, and sure, most of the time I've been able to brush it aside with some distractions but whenever I have an event that is not favorable, I feel down, very down. I've been coping with it rather decently then, but now.. thats why I'm here, expressing my depression.. my .. loneliness to a website with only a small possibility of someone reading it, but hey! Better than keeping it in, right?
I'm actually living with someone special, a mate you can say it. Yet.. I can't help to feel all so lonely.. its .. depressing.. Sure, you can tell me to go talk to her about it, but the thing is.. she's seems to be frequently busy.. and being a strong uni-tasker, she gets utterly stressed if I ever came to her talking whenever she is working on her computer.
Something similiar happened before as well, you see, I've never been in a furry convention before but the time she brought me to one? I was so happy, eager and nervous. Going to a FurCon with your special one is indeed great especially when its your first, yes? But not for me, she.. unfortunately was part of the staff for the FurCon and was so occupied from pre-con till post-con .. leaving me all alone.. while I stare at other furs laughing along with their buddies and mates. When I confront her about it, she got very upset, going on about "So you want me to quit my job that I've been wanting to do for so long?". For fuck's sake, ofcourse not, I just.. wanted her to make an effort to come see me and spend some time with me! Not just.. for a few minutes before she crashes onto the bed..
That was then.. now she is busy with a big task of building a website for furries which I think is a great idea.. just wished she would.. take it easy about it and not be so .. focused.. and stressed about it.. her mind was almost constantly about the website.. and when she starts working on it? Boy.. she takes hours and sometimes even a whole day! Leaving me.. all ..lonely.. despite living under the same roof.. We used to spend majority of our time playing games and it was blissful.. but I guess everything has to come at an end, huh?..
Maybe.. just maybe.. I could find someone here who is willing to provide me with some company when I'm down and lonely? .. I hope my situation gets better before I need such though..
ANYWAYS, I feel a little better from writing this here, to those who really read the whole thing.. thank so very much, I mean it. I don't usually do this as I prefer to be the listening ear but .. I needed this. I would express my gratitude with a big hug and a kiss on the forehead if you fancy it! Have a great week! ^^
EDIT: You know.. maybe I should write a story whenever I'm feeling down again, then I'll post it here for you guys and girls to read! :3
