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I'll be grieving for a bit
11 years ago
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~It's not a game, I'm not a robot AI challenging you,
I'm not a phantom,
I'm in your face, and
I'm here to see it through
Right before your eyes,
Watch us multiply,
Come to claim our rights - it's time
As our power grows,
Tryin' to stop us shows,
Might as well go try'n stop time
I'm not a phantom,
I'm in your face, and
I'm here to see it through
Right before your eyes,
Watch us multiply,
Come to claim our rights - it's time
As our power grows,
Tryin' to stop us shows,
Might as well go try'n stop time
So….. Things have been… I would say, good lately. The real word is kind scary, rent, and bills, and such. Me and 
latias714 have been doing pretty good, living together takes adjusting, but I think it’s going good. Works been scary, talk of hour cuts, making me wonder I f I’ll need a 2nd job, or just, another one, but it’s at least not a immediate issue. Plus not to mention school, but I need my dad to get back to me about funding. I thankfully have a small fund set aside, which is good because funds are still unstable, I mean we’re fine, but it’s still enough to make me… worried I guess.
But now, the main reason for my need to write. I was having a pretty nice night, after a decent bit of work, and I lean over to check on my hedgehog Chester. And there he is, prickly and no longer alive…… I feel just awful. I hadn’t paid him enough attention, I’ld been meaning to clean his cage, just bought him new shavings… I just feel.. awful.. Like I should have done more for him, but he didn’t seem unhappy at least, he was eating, roaming around, drinking plenty.
He was about… a year and a half.. I don’t know what I did.. I thought I was prepared. It’s going to drive me crazy.. Feeling like a bad owner. But I can’t afford to have a vet look at his body, and I may just end regretting knowing…. I’ll I can really do, is do better. It’ll be a while before I can get another pet…. They can be rather expensive, especially with a 300 dollar deposit. While Chester cost me about 300 bucks, his care really wasn’t much…
So yeah, I’m just going to be grieving for the next handful of weeks. Feeling like an irresponsible heel. Wondering what killed him, and what I could have done to prevent it. It’s too warm in Florida, even on the coldest days for him to hibernate, I did my best to buy him good food, and I don’t think a slightly dirty cage, or lack of play would kill him so suddenly…
So I really don’t know, I just had to get it out in the open. I’ll just distract myself, work, games, and of course my dear friends here… I’ll be able to love a creature again, my and Donie will get a cat someday.. that will be nice.
Well wishes to all you wonderful people, and for anyone who read, thank you for caring.
latias714 have been doing pretty good, living together takes adjusting, but I think it’s going good. Works been scary, talk of hour cuts, making me wonder I f I’ll need a 2nd job, or just, another one, but it’s at least not a immediate issue. Plus not to mention school, but I need my dad to get back to me about funding. I thankfully have a small fund set aside, which is good because funds are still unstable, I mean we’re fine, but it’s still enough to make me… worried I guess.But now, the main reason for my need to write. I was having a pretty nice night, after a decent bit of work, and I lean over to check on my hedgehog Chester. And there he is, prickly and no longer alive…… I feel just awful. I hadn’t paid him enough attention, I’ld been meaning to clean his cage, just bought him new shavings… I just feel.. awful.. Like I should have done more for him, but he didn’t seem unhappy at least, he was eating, roaming around, drinking plenty.
He was about… a year and a half.. I don’t know what I did.. I thought I was prepared. It’s going to drive me crazy.. Feeling like a bad owner. But I can’t afford to have a vet look at his body, and I may just end regretting knowing…. I’ll I can really do, is do better. It’ll be a while before I can get another pet…. They can be rather expensive, especially with a 300 dollar deposit. While Chester cost me about 300 bucks, his care really wasn’t much…
So yeah, I’m just going to be grieving for the next handful of weeks. Feeling like an irresponsible heel. Wondering what killed him, and what I could have done to prevent it. It’s too warm in Florida, even on the coldest days for him to hibernate, I did my best to buy him good food, and I don’t think a slightly dirty cage, or lack of play would kill him so suddenly…
So I really don’t know, I just had to get it out in the open. I’ll just distract myself, work, games, and of course my dear friends here… I’ll be able to love a creature again, my and Donie will get a cat someday.. that will be nice.
Well wishes to all you wonderful people, and for anyone who read, thank you for caring.
I just worry if I was cruel to him, if he was ever unhappy due to the life I'ld given him. I can definitely say I don't want another cage based pet for a while. House pets sort of, demand your attention. I really look forward to getting a cat.. independent, yet loving, as long as they're fed, watered, and there litter is changed they're pretty happy, and if you haven't been petting them enough, they'll let you know, and you'll love them for it, cause they just do it in a cute, affectionate way.
I dunno, this is just the kinda thing I tend to overthink, my heads of course not right at this moment anyhow.... But really, thank you, and I'm sorry we haven't talked much lately. Let's work on fixing that my dear and caring friend ^^
But yes lets get back to talking more. And also no matter what is going on in my life, I always have time for a friend in need.