Just a piece of advice...theres way too much of this kind of posting on FA. If your looking for sympathy, this is the wrong way to go about it. Did you notice how nobody has replied to this? the main reason is everybody is sick to death of it. Believe it or not...everybody has times when they are not at 100%. Now, if you want to make real friends here...be yourself and not some "emo" fur looking desperately for another like yourself. Because thats all your going to find.

yeah sorry about, i was in a bad place when i wrote that without thinking and forgot to delete it later thanks for the comment it reminded of it and the journal is gone now, i once again im sorry about the post