Just told hubs I do not want sexy time because it doesn't feel like it use to. That went well:/ I said I haven't really wanted much of anything lately. He said he'll stop bothering me then, I said yeah cause thats healthy. He's not too happy but I refuse to lie. I haven't said everything yet cause still thinking about it but I think I love and care for him but am not in love anymore. Things just keep going downhill and I'm stressed more times than not, I can't talk whenever I want to my dear friend I have to wait for permission then it gets taken away again and I cant work on the art I want to. I don't like existing much anymore, not that I'd do anything stupid just saying how I feel. He's trying to be romantic more but I just dont want it anymore.