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16 years ago
This weekend I've worked harder then I ever have before... on many things..
I wont' go into too much details cause I always feel scared of boring people with these things...
In general my health's not ben the greatest over the last few weeksn.. It seems liek it'sevenign otu now, =3 but I did what I had to do even tho I would have much rather hidden in bed XD
The first thing...
I'vebeen worknig really hard on zeeboogle contest... Normally I give up on myself very easily... or I let obsticles disable me very quickly... or there are tiems when circumstances flat out made it impossible to finish artistic goals... 10 full colour and detailed pictures in 1.5 months is rather ambitiouse with me.. (also keepingi n mid that I was keepnig up with trades and personal art in that time..) But i buckled down.. and I did it! jsut -barely- (the last pic was finished then submitted at 11:58 D= *dramatic pose*
The second thing..
My grandfather died.. He had cancer so it wasnt' a suprise. It was in fact, rather goodthat he went since he was in pain. See, him dying was a good thign.. btu comign to terms with the concept of death was much harder... aswell as seeing my family in such deep sorrow (and having mixed feelnigs of guilt ... Am I bad for not feelnig as sad as they are? (the answer is no.. I'm jsut zen aobut it)) Prior to this event.. I had been terrified of deat hand dying above all over fears I have... Thisis no longer the case..
The third thing...
On saturday night my boi and I were treated by my two best friends to a double date. I was dragged from my home to a niiice restaurentThe lineup at the restaurent was looonngg (40 min wait for table (IT WAS WORHT IT)) However, while waiting... I noticed with a sinking feelnig that someone I truely dispise was there. I'm not goingto get into detials since it is a long, painful and sordid ordeal..Needless to say, this fellow was a giant sleeze, and hurt me very personally and deeply. Anyway... He was there... with friends... for a few moents I could feel the blood rushing in my ears, and my heart rate going.. threatening apanic attack... However.. in a moment of shocked numbness I remembered a quote from my favorite show... "I just can’t believe that you were married to Joy Darville. I haven’t thought about how much better I am than her in years. " Now... as sleezey as Joy is shes not nearly as bad as this guy... however.. it made me smile. And it was true.. Smug prideisn't much better then fear and sadness... bt... it certainly allowed me to havea great evenign with frineds, to feel confidant, and proud. (even tho, in a hilariosue twist of fate,, (he was beside OUR table XD)) I'm still learning how to be confidant... How to feel good aobut me... but I'm getting there =D
Soooooooooooo I'm proud of myself XDXD
I plan on being very productive... I've got some wirting I'vve been dying to post... I've got a feirce itch to seewwsewsew.. I have trades to work on... and best of all.. I have al ot of quick in-my-head pictures ( and... FANART (for a change)) that need to be captureddd
YAH *fistpump*
I wont' go into too much details cause I always feel scared of boring people with these things...
In general my health's not ben the greatest over the last few weeksn.. It seems liek it'sevenign otu now, =3 but I did what I had to do even tho I would have much rather hidden in bed XD
The first thing...
I'vebeen worknig really hard on zeeboogle contest... Normally I give up on myself very easily... or I let obsticles disable me very quickly... or there are tiems when circumstances flat out made it impossible to finish artistic goals... 10 full colour and detailed pictures in 1.5 months is rather ambitiouse with me.. (also keepingi n mid that I was keepnig up with trades and personal art in that time..) But i buckled down.. and I did it! jsut -barely- (the last pic was finished then submitted at 11:58 D= *dramatic pose*
The second thing..
My grandfather died.. He had cancer so it wasnt' a suprise. It was in fact, rather goodthat he went since he was in pain. See, him dying was a good thign.. btu comign to terms with the concept of death was much harder... aswell as seeing my family in such deep sorrow (and having mixed feelnigs of guilt ... Am I bad for not feelnig as sad as they are? (the answer is no.. I'm jsut zen aobut it)) Prior to this event.. I had been terrified of deat hand dying above all over fears I have... Thisis no longer the case..
The third thing...
On saturday night my boi and I were treated by my two best friends to a double date. I was dragged from my home to a niiice restaurentThe lineup at the restaurent was looonngg (40 min wait for table (IT WAS WORHT IT)) However, while waiting... I noticed with a sinking feelnig that someone I truely dispise was there. I'm not goingto get into detials since it is a long, painful and sordid ordeal..Needless to say, this fellow was a giant sleeze, and hurt me very personally and deeply. Anyway... He was there... with friends... for a few moents I could feel the blood rushing in my ears, and my heart rate going.. threatening apanic attack... However.. in a moment of shocked numbness I remembered a quote from my favorite show... "I just can’t believe that you were married to Joy Darville. I haven’t thought about how much better I am than her in years. " Now... as sleezey as Joy is shes not nearly as bad as this guy... however.. it made me smile. And it was true.. Smug prideisn't much better then fear and sadness... bt... it certainly allowed me to havea great evenign with frineds, to feel confidant, and proud. (even tho, in a hilariosue twist of fate,, (he was beside OUR table XD)) I'm still learning how to be confidant... How to feel good aobut me... but I'm getting there =D
Soooooooooooo I'm proud of myself XDXD
I plan on being very productive... I've got some wirting I'vve been dying to post... I've got a feirce itch to seewwsewsew.. I have trades to work on... and best of all.. I have al ot of quick in-my-head pictures ( and... FANART (for a change)) that need to be captureddd
YAH *fistpump*
I don't need luck XD
cause... for me... it was a contest against myself ot see if I coudlacually do that... and.. I did XD so I am pleaased as punch
thanks for that XD
but there are like SO MANY really awesome people in that conest!! all the entries are cool xD and it will be really cool no matter who winnnssszz