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I fucked UP! I need someone to chat w--also, TMI Tues.
11 years ago
Wholllllllley fekkin' OMG!1
I fucked up so badly that I seriously am now really confused and embarrassed and dumb. Wow, am I dumb! I suck so hard at interpersonal relationships, I can't even begin to explain.
I'm awkward. Not the "good" awkward where it's like "aw, that cute nerd!" More like "what?? where did that come from?" shit.
Basic run-down: I met someone. That NEVER happens. But, I'm weird. I'm like...fucking, from the moon! So, I tried really hard to keep shit chill for the time I've known this super-amazing woman.
Then, I got drunk.
That pretty much should sum up the story right there, but to expound on the situation a little, I did "that thing" that should never be done where I wrote this stupid-long message to her about my feelings. I was drunk, so it was definitely what the Japanese call "ちやほや" (I don't know the English equivalent). You know...where you babble and are like "dude you are so great--i loves you!"
I even went so far that I used the "L" word. To date, I have confessed love to only one other person, so this was...anyway, I'm babbling. Seriously, 40-year-old virgin time (I'm not a virgin, tho', naturally).
Anyway, now I'm all "the fuck is wrong with you?" She never responded, and that's OK. I wish I could take a broom and brush that hour of my life away and make shit better, but I can't.
Just so you guys know (since you're all like 20 or w/e), yes--this kind of shit still happens through your thirties and forties. Heck, it probably happens all through life. Fuck this! I feel like a high school nerd with his crush.
Oh well. TMI time...? If you wanna distract me, that's cool (he said to his absent audience)
I fucked up so badly that I seriously am now really confused and embarrassed and dumb. Wow, am I dumb! I suck so hard at interpersonal relationships, I can't even begin to explain.
I'm awkward. Not the "good" awkward where it's like "aw, that cute nerd!" More like "what?? where did that come from?" shit.
Basic run-down: I met someone. That NEVER happens. But, I'm weird. I'm like...fucking, from the moon! So, I tried really hard to keep shit chill for the time I've known this super-amazing woman.
Then, I got drunk.
That pretty much should sum up the story right there, but to expound on the situation a little, I did "that thing" that should never be done where I wrote this stupid-long message to her about my feelings. I was drunk, so it was definitely what the Japanese call "ちやほや" (I don't know the English equivalent). You know...where you babble and are like "dude you are so great--i loves you!"
I even went so far that I used the "L" word. To date, I have confessed love to only one other person, so this was...anyway, I'm babbling. Seriously, 40-year-old virgin time (I'm not a virgin, tho', naturally).
Anyway, now I'm all "the fuck is wrong with you?" She never responded, and that's OK. I wish I could take a broom and brush that hour of my life away and make shit better, but I can't.
Just so you guys know (since you're all like 20 or w/e), yes--this kind of shit still happens through your thirties and forties. Heck, it probably happens all through life. Fuck this! I feel like a high school nerd with his crush.
Oh well. TMI time...? If you wanna distract me, that's cool (he said to his absent audience)
