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Dating issues?
11 years ago
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*takes the bone out of his mouth*
Ugh... I really know know what to feel right now.
To give a basic idea, someone on Facebook has added me as a Friend. I like making friends, either roleplaying friends or just regular friends, so it doesn't bother me to accept unless its someone I know in real life and don't really like even though they think we're on good terms. So, of course I accept. We chat a little and he offers wanting us to be boyfriends. Well, I want to try and he was a little insistent. Mind you, we live across country pretty much (CA compared to MS). I understand wanting to talk. However, I get nervous actually talking to people, and do a lot better with it through texting. He's insisting to want to talk, though. I have actually talked to him once for a few. The only thing is I keep myself busy usually (either at Pokemon events or hanging with friends), and I don't like the idea of talking to someone on the phone when I am hanging with others. And I can't always simply break away to talk to someone on the phone. Now I'm left feeling guilty because he feels like no one cares for him, everyone hates him and such, and making me feel bad for going with my standard routine. I don't even know how to tell him that I had said in the first place that I didn't want a relationship because I don't know how, especially since, I don't! I would definitely have liked a relationship to have been with someone I have at least gotten a chance to talk to, share interests with, etc. I know I'm not in any position to be looking for a relationship however, considering my own position (mediocre job with no transportation of my own or even a driver's license, I spend most of my time sleeping during the day since I work overnight, and spend free time trying to find something to do or lazying around since I can't always hang out with one of my usual friends). I have had thoughts of just blocking his number and blocking him on Facebook, but I don't want to be totally rude. But I feel like if I try telling him, he's going to guilt me through a whole "everyone hates me" type thing.
To give a basic idea, someone on Facebook has added me as a Friend. I like making friends, either roleplaying friends or just regular friends, so it doesn't bother me to accept unless its someone I know in real life and don't really like even though they think we're on good terms. So, of course I accept. We chat a little and he offers wanting us to be boyfriends. Well, I want to try and he was a little insistent. Mind you, we live across country pretty much (CA compared to MS). I understand wanting to talk. However, I get nervous actually talking to people, and do a lot better with it through texting. He's insisting to want to talk, though. I have actually talked to him once for a few. The only thing is I keep myself busy usually (either at Pokemon events or hanging with friends), and I don't like the idea of talking to someone on the phone when I am hanging with others. And I can't always simply break away to talk to someone on the phone. Now I'm left feeling guilty because he feels like no one cares for him, everyone hates him and such, and making me feel bad for going with my standard routine. I don't even know how to tell him that I had said in the first place that I didn't want a relationship because I don't know how, especially since, I don't! I would definitely have liked a relationship to have been with someone I have at least gotten a chance to talk to, share interests with, etc. I know I'm not in any position to be looking for a relationship however, considering my own position (mediocre job with no transportation of my own or even a driver's license, I spend most of my time sleeping during the day since I work overnight, and spend free time trying to find something to do or lazying around since I can't always hang out with one of my usual friends). I have had thoughts of just blocking his number and blocking him on Facebook, but I don't want to be totally rude. But I feel like if I try telling him, he's going to guilt me through a whole "everyone hates me" type thing.
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~zasshuken
:( aww well hope u gets betters :3
