First I must apologize to everyone. I know what I did was crazy. But then again, I did go crazy. Literally went crazy. Because of my back and here's why. Because of my back, I have been taking pills. Both that literally makes me pass out. Which I took every time I woke up. But because it made me pass out. I couldn't take them and go to work. Even though I have restrictions. I still was in a lot of pain at work. But I was losing track of time and everything. I couldn't even remember what day it was. My hours are being cut to the point when I can't even pay 1 bill. And of course my parents are not understanding and are soo angry at me cause I'm unable to do stuff that had to before. So pretty much I was in a lot of stress, which didn't help my state of mind and depression. I was lucky that I didn't' do any harm to myself. But I did draw this while I was deeply pissed and angry at soo many people. At the same time I know that people just don't read journals anymore. I just need certain people to read this.

Please understand why I did what I did. And why I'm still going to be silent. I'm tired of trying soo hard with everyone. I still need more time to heal. And please understand what I'm going through