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College is... going. o.o
10 years ago
Here's the scoop! So yeah... I have been back at college. Thought I would write a journal here to leave a little message in a bottle for anyone. More of a milestone than anything.
For all of you following me, close friends and internet family: I have been extremely stressed out. I have pushed myself farther this year than any previous year... Though it sees like I have not made it half the distance. This second semester of Sophomore year is really grinding e down. I have a decent schedule, but I don't think my body ever really adjusted to it. I am tired almost constantly. I struggle with my classes. There is just so much work to do CONSTANTLY. It is not like last year where I could just do a little bit of it and be done for a day or two. There is a neverending torrent of work piling up onto my desk, and I have had to decide what to get done and what gets left behind to allow myself a decent amount of sleep. Right now... Yeah. It is late and I am working on a lab report. I should have been able to do it a while ago, but my anxiety has returned from the depths... It is more like ADD than anything. Which I honestly probably have, though I am able to struggle through it sometimes and get chunks of work done. That is how I have done it in the past, but this time... It is really difficult...
I really hate complaining about my situation, because I know peoples' are so much worse than mine. You can go ahead and say that you can't judge that but.. Honestly I do not have a terrible life. I have family and friends that love me, which is more than I know an unfortunate number of you can say... I just want this to be over... That or my brain to work out its funk and get to work.
so... From all this, I have not really been able to talk, or been in the mood to initiate any RPs or chats with other people than my close friends. I simply cannot. I am sorry that I have left a couple of you behind, I really am. But I need this time to get to work and succeed at what I am paying dearly for. This work unfortunately comes first. Sanity second. And all of you wonderful people have had to take a back seat... That being said. I am still here. I am not going away or disappearing. If ANY of you have some serious issues that you want to TALK about, PLEASE tell me. Being able to help someone out of a dark place makes me happy. I desire that kind of interaction. If you want to keep it to yourself... That is your own prerogative. But don't go around with a weight on your shoulders that is easy enough for me to lift. I am a good listener. I can always listen. I just can't always just RP.
Wow. Long journal. I should get back to work now. You all have a safe night. Ill be around doing something boring related to mathematics... xP
For all of you following me, close friends and internet family: I have been extremely stressed out. I have pushed myself farther this year than any previous year... Though it sees like I have not made it half the distance. This second semester of Sophomore year is really grinding e down. I have a decent schedule, but I don't think my body ever really adjusted to it. I am tired almost constantly. I struggle with my classes. There is just so much work to do CONSTANTLY. It is not like last year where I could just do a little bit of it and be done for a day or two. There is a neverending torrent of work piling up onto my desk, and I have had to decide what to get done and what gets left behind to allow myself a decent amount of sleep. Right now... Yeah. It is late and I am working on a lab report. I should have been able to do it a while ago, but my anxiety has returned from the depths... It is more like ADD than anything. Which I honestly probably have, though I am able to struggle through it sometimes and get chunks of work done. That is how I have done it in the past, but this time... It is really difficult...
I really hate complaining about my situation, because I know peoples' are so much worse than mine. You can go ahead and say that you can't judge that but.. Honestly I do not have a terrible life. I have family and friends that love me, which is more than I know an unfortunate number of you can say... I just want this to be over... That or my brain to work out its funk and get to work.
so... From all this, I have not really been able to talk, or been in the mood to initiate any RPs or chats with other people than my close friends. I simply cannot. I am sorry that I have left a couple of you behind, I really am. But I need this time to get to work and succeed at what I am paying dearly for. This work unfortunately comes first. Sanity second. And all of you wonderful people have had to take a back seat... That being said. I am still here. I am not going away or disappearing. If ANY of you have some serious issues that you want to TALK about, PLEASE tell me. Being able to help someone out of a dark place makes me happy. I desire that kind of interaction. If you want to keep it to yourself... That is your own prerogative. But don't go around with a weight on your shoulders that is easy enough for me to lift. I am a good listener. I can always listen. I just can't always just RP.
Wow. Long journal. I should get back to work now. You all have a safe night. Ill be around doing something boring related to mathematics... xP
Thank you buddy! *hugs you tight*
Well,try to do it nice=^^=
If you want to talk to me about anything just message me cause I'm always here for ya , kitten.