Just surviving the winter in north western north dakota. First winter here for me, and I'm from socal. Never have experienced this kind of cold and freezing before. So sick of the snow and ice. And I found out, that my grandfather on my mom's side was born in north dakota!

Also seems that the cold and my car don't agree. The headlights electrical decided to mess up. took it to a shop and got it fixed. 9 broken wire locations. Also, my headlights were wired wrong from the factory. *beak palms* In other news, it looks like the company will be moving our crew from the Blaisdell house to a place in Williston so we can be much closer to our work area. This means less drive time and less fuel used. Will just have to have an Ethernet cable ran from where ever the net modem is to what ever room I end up in. I prefer wired to wireless. More secure, and faster and more reliable.

Also, a bit worried that my mate and I wont ever have sex again as he is never in the mood it seems and I fear that when he come out to meet me in march, it will be a repeat of christmas vacation when I saw him last. If that's the case, then I'm seriously going to consider breaking up. I love him dearly and support him, but if he can't and wont be intimate and physical with me, then whats the point anymore if all I am is just a source of money for his debt and animals and shit. *sigh* Yeah, sex isn't everything in a close relationship, but it sure as hell is part of it. And being rejected like that makes one feel like they are ugly, obscene, unwanted, and viewed as just disgusting by everyone else.