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(No)Regrets
16 years ago
I think I'm finally over you. To be honest I think I have been for a week or so now. Just didn't say anything about it til now. Just thought you'd like to know.
At least as much as I'm gonna be. I don't cry over things that made me cry before.
I don't think I'll ever fully be over you. I think there's a part of me that won't ever get over you. But it's okay. Part of me will always love you, and I think you know that.
So...if your reading this. You don't have to worry about hurting me or anything. (Espically since that's already happened a few times now)
I really do just want you to be happy. That's all I ever wanted.
So I do hope you are happy. And I wish you good luck with that person you like if it should come to pass that they can be with you.
And if sometime you should ever change your mind and want to try again then I'll be here.
I just wish that after all this shit things were a little different.
Seems like you don't really want to talk to me that much any more. Like I'm not important to you anymore. But it's cool. I understand, espically after everything.
I just wish that I wasn't losing you like I have everyone else. (You know what I'm talking about...least you should.) Just saying...thats how it seems to me. If it's not...than...I don't know.
I know your busy now, talking to other people, with your job, and other things, so I won't bother you. If you want to talk to me I'll let you im/text me, (Unless it's something important.) so I don't bother or interupt you when your doing something.
~*~*~
It always seems like I lose all the people who are close to me. I guess it's all my fault for one reason or another.
I really do wish I had more friends (on the computer and in real life)
I also wish that a few people I do know online would talk to me more.
I also wish that a few people I don't talk to anymore would be my friend again. (But I don't think that's going to happen.)
I wish I didn't listen to my father about the college I wanted to go to being expensive and not going.
There's alot of things I wish I didn't do, or did do, or did differently. Maybe things would of turned out differently...better..or...worse. Guess I'll never know. What's done is done. I can't change that (no matter how much I wish I could sometimes) There's no magic wand I can wave to change everything. No machine I can step into to go back and do things differently. I can't just wave my hand or snap my fingers and magically have things my way. ( Hell I can't even pay to have things my way.)
~*~*~
I wish I could tell Hyde how fucking awesome he is.
Just for being him.
He can take the most stupidest...dorkiest thing...and make it cool.
He's the one thing that ALWAYS makes me feel better no matter what the fuck is going on around me.
( I love you Hyde. Your fucking awesome! )
~*~*~
On another note...mum's sick. Hospital said it's acute Bronchitius. (Probably spelled that wrong. )
It's a bitch. I had it and phenomnia (probably spelled that bitch wrong too. lol.) at the same time three years in a row when I was little...so..I should know.
Hopefully she'll get better soon. Though she's had it for a while now...so..iono.
I had to get up early two days to get Nicky (my little brother) off to school cause she couldn't get out of bed cause it hurt so much. But it's okay. Made me hella tired though.
~*~*~
Dope's new cd No Regrets is out Tuesday Bitches. You know where the hell I'm gonna be going then. That's right...Besy Buy. Go buy it.
Also hoping I can somehow talk my mom into buying me Hyde's Greatest Hits cd. (Comes out the 18th)
Speaking of Hyde..I changed my Sheezy page. It's now Hyde-tastic. And I loaded new user pics on here. All of Hyde.
You bitches better like Hyde or I don't know why the hell your even talking to me. (lmao) [Don't be offended by the 'bitches' thing. Kthanksbye]
~*~*~
-Pause for a Yaoi fangirl moment-
I downloaded Absolute Obedience...and can I just say....I FUCKING LOVE THIS GAME so far. Ehehehehe.
~*~*~
And to a certain someone who wasn't on the computer today....
HYDE IS BETTER THEN GACKT!
-Have a nice Hyde filled day.
At least as much as I'm gonna be. I don't cry over things that made me cry before.
I don't think I'll ever fully be over you. I think there's a part of me that won't ever get over you. But it's okay. Part of me will always love you, and I think you know that.
So...if your reading this. You don't have to worry about hurting me or anything. (Espically since that's already happened a few times now)
I really do just want you to be happy. That's all I ever wanted.
So I do hope you are happy. And I wish you good luck with that person you like if it should come to pass that they can be with you.
And if sometime you should ever change your mind and want to try again then I'll be here.
I just wish that after all this shit things were a little different.
Seems like you don't really want to talk to me that much any more. Like I'm not important to you anymore. But it's cool. I understand, espically after everything.
I just wish that I wasn't losing you like I have everyone else. (You know what I'm talking about...least you should.) Just saying...thats how it seems to me. If it's not...than...I don't know.
I know your busy now, talking to other people, with your job, and other things, so I won't bother you. If you want to talk to me I'll let you im/text me, (Unless it's something important.) so I don't bother or interupt you when your doing something.
~*~*~
It always seems like I lose all the people who are close to me. I guess it's all my fault for one reason or another.
I really do wish I had more friends (on the computer and in real life)
I also wish that a few people I do know online would talk to me more.
I also wish that a few people I don't talk to anymore would be my friend again. (But I don't think that's going to happen.)
I wish I didn't listen to my father about the college I wanted to go to being expensive and not going.
There's alot of things I wish I didn't do, or did do, or did differently. Maybe things would of turned out differently...better..or...worse. Guess I'll never know. What's done is done. I can't change that (no matter how much I wish I could sometimes) There's no magic wand I can wave to change everything. No machine I can step into to go back and do things differently. I can't just wave my hand or snap my fingers and magically have things my way. ( Hell I can't even pay to have things my way.)
~*~*~
I wish I could tell Hyde how fucking awesome he is.
Just for being him.
He can take the most stupidest...dorkiest thing...and make it cool.
He's the one thing that ALWAYS makes me feel better no matter what the fuck is going on around me.
( I love you Hyde. Your fucking awesome! )
~*~*~
On another note...mum's sick. Hospital said it's acute Bronchitius. (Probably spelled that wrong. )
It's a bitch. I had it and phenomnia (probably spelled that bitch wrong too. lol.) at the same time three years in a row when I was little...so..I should know.
Hopefully she'll get better soon. Though she's had it for a while now...so..iono.
I had to get up early two days to get Nicky (my little brother) off to school cause she couldn't get out of bed cause it hurt so much. But it's okay. Made me hella tired though.
~*~*~
Dope's new cd No Regrets is out Tuesday Bitches. You know where the hell I'm gonna be going then. That's right...Besy Buy. Go buy it.
Also hoping I can somehow talk my mom into buying me Hyde's Greatest Hits cd. (Comes out the 18th)
Speaking of Hyde..I changed my Sheezy page. It's now Hyde-tastic. And I loaded new user pics on here. All of Hyde.
You bitches better like Hyde or I don't know why the hell your even talking to me. (lmao) [Don't be offended by the 'bitches' thing. Kthanksbye]
~*~*~
-Pause for a Yaoi fangirl moment-
I downloaded Absolute Obedience...and can I just say....I FUCKING LOVE THIS GAME so far. Ehehehehe.
~*~*~
And to a certain someone who wasn't on the computer today....
HYDE IS BETTER THEN GACKT!
-Have a nice Hyde filled day.
and yes that game rocks dear LOOOOOOVE! IT!
Aha. Yeah...I only got to play it one night though...freaking stepdad and little brother were up all late the last two nights so no sexy boy smexings for me.
*Puts pretty kitty collar with bell on the Kimmy. Pets* There. Now you won't be lost anymore.
*Clings* I'm glad you think of me as a friend cause I was sorta thinking you were my friend..so..I guess I was right. Cha...should do something about that. lol.