So it's been since I was a kid I've been obsessed with growing, owing to how small my parents/rest of my family was, being told not to get my hopes up size wise, I was positive I could WILL myself bigger, and now a 6ft 230lb beastie I definitely fit the bill of BIGGER, but nowhere near as big as I would fantasize about.

Honestly, my first fantasies were about endless growth, my little self picturing growth spurts that just wouldn't end! getting so worked up and not understanding why (yeah it was a difficult time for a young beast to be!) I would even have nightmares that I would wake up from, and be rock hard, and covered in sweat at the thought of, where my growth would just start and NEVER stop! Endlessly BIGGER and BIGGER! A weird kid for sure, but one who just couldn't fight the growing beast inside!

I've since embraced that side of me to say the least haha