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... *sigh* guess a little venty update
10 years ago
So my boyfriend's gone and tried to kill himself, and i'm not sure how to feel about it. He's pretty set on leaving this world, but... *sighs* i honestly can't live without him.
I'm also still having trouble with my family, acceptance of my sexuality (bi) and maybe gender? i'm still not sure of that, might be genderfluid or nonbinary, or maybe i'm just an extreme tomboy, idek. my mother refuses to believe there's anything wrong with me, but um
1) depression? I have, uh, scars.. i've got one from today, even.
2) i'm EXTREMELY insecure, idek why people like me, if they even do.
3) i cannot focus. on anything, for more than like 10 minutes.
There's more, but those are my main problems. i'd hate to ruin your time in you reading this.
So if my boyfriend does leave, if my pleads don't effect his choice or anything else, i'll probably not be able to function... for a while... and i'll just, mentally, go downhill. that's what i assume will happen.
Fuck My Life. I just wanna lie down and sleep forever, and i want my distanced bae to be here in my arms... i'm a mess, fuck.
people who owe things to me....
kiralame (rainbow yarn tail)
kiralame (rainbow yarn tail) 
Step 2: don't hurt yourself. That's bad. Help yourself out. Tell someone
Step 3: keep calm and Jesus loves you