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The start of a new age.
10 years ago
Dear Journal.
I don't know why I'm writing this here, I'm still so shy that I can barely comment on any of the art I enjoy. Sigh. But you know what? life is all about getting up and moving forward for those of you who don't know me at all I'm Draylin and I enjoy a wide range of art and stories I only wish I had half the talent many of the artists here have, But where I lack in drawing I make up for in other areas well I think I do? =p Anyways it has been Five years now since my sister took her life and it still brings me to tears when I think of it. a friend of mine told me that dealing with a natural death vs a suicide is much easier and they are 100% right considering my mother passed away Nov 23rd 2014 She was 63, I know a lot of people may say oh at least she had a long life but no that's just too young to me granted I'm only twenty eight living in my own house (big update) But I was able to handle my mothers passing in a way I honestly had to ask a shrink if I was inhuman by not being a total wreck. You see I obtained a lovely case of PTSD agoraphobia and high stress levels when I was in my final year of high school, That destroyed me at the time and without my Mother and Father's love I think I would have ended it then and there but I've always had my mom to talk to about my issues with being social...Yeah I know how strange it must sound that I'm scared to be social and say things on a comment or picture even when I want to say how I feel and what I think I just...Get tangled up in fear of rejection, Well I know my last journal said a new start but I have to keep strong and keep moving if I stop now I will lose so much of myself to my own fear. I know many can understand this and see where I'm coming from I do want to make friends here and to all those who have commented on my page I thank you and I hope you know how amazing you are ^.^ But that all of the people I've taken an interest in or have yet to talk to I hope I get the chance to sit down and have a one on one or at the least cheer you on like a fan but I hope to be a friend to all. Much love -Draylin