For those of you that care basically. I finally realized that my life isnt over, i mean i had to come to the idea that she left not cuz i was at fault but becuz she couldnt keep up with me. I did love her hell stupid me stil does but thats the curse of being me i suppose.
I am ok no more crying about her no more being upset nope im doing better i am finding myself and realizing how happy i can be regardless. I went through the worst heart ache when i lost my mother to cancer last year, im pretty sure if i can go through that and stil find my smile im pretty sure i can get over someone who was silly enough to leave me when all i offered is love.
Im a dog why? well becuz i love ppl and can be so loyal to those i love, but only if u treat me well enough to earn that love. Im alone yes why? well becuz after loosing my mother last year my father of lucemia when i was 7, my sister disowning me after my mothers passing plus both sides of my parents family are either mostly dead or dont want anything to do with me or my moms kids. I know that a journal is basically just putting it on here for you all to see but hey i feel like this helps me keep a record of what im doing and how im feeling. So if your reading this and giving a danm THANK YOU
I know my life isnt the worst im sure somebody else has got it worse somehow, im not about pitty partys im about loving ppl. I am a dog and i go bark lol my smile is mine and my laughter is earned. i am strong and i will get over this. Again love all of my crazy friends u guys are fucking amazing u are basically replacing my family i have lost. love always to all of u guys out there talk to u again soon <3