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I've come to determination...
10 years ago
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I'll moving away, in other words, running away from home within these 5 years.
I've had enough of them, All they wants me to be is their puppet who obey and act whatever they want.
All they want is me as a son and inheritance of the family, not me as a person.
My life is ruined by their decision countless times, I've became something worthless and loss the meaning of existence all because what they wants me to be.
My good friend once ask me "It's your life after all, why didn't you choose your own life?"
I think it is the time, I lived my life for the others long enough and now it's time for me to have my own life, my own happiness and of course, my own dream.
I don't care what everyone will say, whatever will become to them anymore, I DO care about them everything, but they didn't care about me at all.
They only care about me because I'm the inheritance of this family member who shared the same bloodline with them, and because I'm a shareholder from our company, I have no choice but to take that responsibility without my agreement since the moment I was born.
They didn't care me as an actual person even a single bit, I have no right to choose what I want to become, What I want to do, what I'm feeling and I have no right to argue them, All they answer me is "This company is what we've built and we should keep makes it alive" and "If it do less money than our business can then just give it up"
This is an actual Asian people culture happened here, but frankly this is no difference than the enslavement.
I'm trying to be nice, trying to get along, trying to adapt, trying to understand their point of view but in the end, it's me who have to sacrifice my every fucking things I have "for their sake"
I know money is very important to do the living these days, but money didn't means everything.
All I ask all along is acceptance for who I really am, for what I've done, for what I love, but the answer from them is "No, you have to abandon yourself and helping your brother running this business"
Affecting by this environment as a trauma of my life, All I'm looking for all these times is the value of my very own existence as a person being, I feel like I'm an incomplete being who's matter this world not either being dead or alive because I'm no different than a puppet living with my family.
Which later, I've found the value of my existence through my furry friends and this fandom.
Now what I need is some cash and I'll rent or buy a house, And I'll permanently moving out from this family.
Maybe at that time I'll do commissions for living, As all I know how right now is drawing.
So, Please bear with me a little longer, I still need supports and friends.
And thank you for reading my story.
I love you all <3
I've had enough of them, All they wants me to be is their puppet who obey and act whatever they want.
All they want is me as a son and inheritance of the family, not me as a person.
My life is ruined by their decision countless times, I've became something worthless and loss the meaning of existence all because what they wants me to be.
My good friend once ask me "It's your life after all, why didn't you choose your own life?"
I think it is the time, I lived my life for the others long enough and now it's time for me to have my own life, my own happiness and of course, my own dream.
I don't care what everyone will say, whatever will become to them anymore, I DO care about them everything, but they didn't care about me at all.
They only care about me because I'm the inheritance of this family member who shared the same bloodline with them, and because I'm a shareholder from our company, I have no choice but to take that responsibility without my agreement since the moment I was born.
They didn't care me as an actual person even a single bit, I have no right to choose what I want to become, What I want to do, what I'm feeling and I have no right to argue them, All they answer me is "This company is what we've built and we should keep makes it alive" and "If it do less money than our business can then just give it up"
This is an actual Asian people culture happened here, but frankly this is no difference than the enslavement.
I'm trying to be nice, trying to get along, trying to adapt, trying to understand their point of view but in the end, it's me who have to sacrifice my every fucking things I have "for their sake"
I know money is very important to do the living these days, but money didn't means everything.
All I ask all along is acceptance for who I really am, for what I've done, for what I love, but the answer from them is "No, you have to abandon yourself and helping your brother running this business"
Affecting by this environment as a trauma of my life, All I'm looking for all these times is the value of my very own existence as a person being, I feel like I'm an incomplete being who's matter this world not either being dead or alive because I'm no different than a puppet living with my family.
Which later, I've found the value of my existence through my furry friends and this fandom.
Now what I need is some cash and I'll rent or buy a house, And I'll permanently moving out from this family.
Maybe at that time I'll do commissions for living, As all I know how right now is drawing.
So, Please bear with me a little longer, I still need supports and friends.
And thank you for reading my story.
I love you all <3
hope we get in touch still
In fact it is the furry fandom and furry freinds that makes me feel like I'm so happy to be alive X3
But what I get from them all these time is the second part.
It's not like I hate them, I just can't stand the dictatorship over my life, which makes me became incomplete being like this.
And thank you, I'll try my best. :3
But as you said, money isn't everything. It's just not worthy to work on something if you aren't happy with it.
I hope you get what it's better for you.
I know living on my own didn't provide me much freedom like what I expect, but it's better than having to bear a burden for someone's dream and take the blame when I failed to do it.
I also will do the move out from 1 to 3 years from now. I know is not easy, but maybe is the best for us.
Just take care :3
and if ever need support, just ask *gives you a warm hug*
I know friendship had nothing to do with fame but still it's being a big honor for me having a famous artist as a friend lol
Thank you Rodney!
well, hope for the best! Good luck cute >w<
I just don't like the feeling of being unstable by short of money.
Anyway, thank you for the advice :3
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家长总是把自己的希望灌注在子女身上。我一直都认为，无论经验和道理有多么正确，不通过自己的力量去碰触，永远不理解为什么必须要这样做。就像是课本的知识一样，不和实践结合起来，就是相当抽象的概念。
三十六计也有一招叫“欲擒故纵”，或许自由放开，有时要比步步紧逼效果更好。
希望你家人有一天能理解你的心情。
其实学会汉语都是俩亲的愿望，并不是我自己的未来。根本他们只想要会做生意又学会普通话的孩子。
我已经放弃了希望他们能够理解我的心情，可这是我这一辈子的一个最大的错误。
因为我也是个华裔，当华侨家庭的儿子只能为他们干活，帮他们做生意，除了赚更多的钱我永远得不到自由。
就是说当中国父母的儿子只能实现父母的梦想才算是个孝顺嘛，这太不讲道理了。
不能选者自己的梦想也算是我们自己的未来吗？
Thank you :3
ชีวิตของหมี หมีมีสิทธิ์เลือกทางเดินเอง ใช่
แต่เอาจริงๆ การใช้ชีวิตยังไงก็ไม่สามารถอิสระได้ตามใจชอบหรอก
ถึงจะได้ทำงานที่ชอบ แต่ก็มีบ่อยใช่ปะละที่บางทีก็ต้องรับงานที่ไม่ได้อยากทำเลย ที่ต้องมานั่งวาดรูปที่ตัวเองไม่ได้อยากวาดเลย ต้องวาดตามคำสั่งคนโน้นคนนี่นะ
อีกอย่าง การใช้ชีวิตด้วยการรับคอมมิสชั่น... แมวค่อนข้างเป็นห่วงเรื่องความมั่นคงของหมีนะ
จริงๆ ก็อยากให้หมีลองพบกันครึ่งทางกับครอบครัวนะ แต่แมวไม่รู้ในรายละเอียด จะแนะนำมั่วๆ ก็คงไม่ดีเลย
แมวคงช่วยอะไรมากไม่ได้ ก็คงได้แต่ขอให้หมีโชคดี เจอทางออกแก้ปัญหาได้ลงตัวนะ
If I have to choose between end up as a beggar on the street, end up being mental breakdown crazy guy in the psychiatric hospital or end up as a headline news as a corpse who's jumping from the tall building for committing suicide, I rather choose fighting over my destiny as a beggar.
Anyway, Thank you for the morale :3
Best of luck breaking free of all that!
Freedom always have a price to pay, And I'll do my best paying that cost.
Seriously, I'm glad you decided to take charge of your like. I wish you the best, and I'm always here if you need to talk.
My best wishes for you when you get free of them!