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State of Nibbles
10 years ago
Hello FA,
I must admit I have not been well, honestly I don't recall a time in my life when I have been this distraught and overwhelmed with life in general. Without going in to much detail, I am losing the only light I have had in my life for the past 3 years and I don't know why. Every attempt I have made to fix whatever was wrong has met with cold-hearted dismissals. This person has meant the world to me and I can't see much to be happy about without her. Aside from that, I haven't had much support from a lot of people I used to think I could depend on, but to my dismay they can't seem to find time for me like I have for them time and time again. All at once I lost everytone I used to think was there for me, my tears have dried up only to make way for more and I am in a pit. I wish I could turn off my emotions like it seems everyone else has, but all I know how to do is give.
On a more professional level, I know I have left a lot of people waiting, and I promise you I am trying, I have more than a few sketches that I need to send for approval, but I just haven't had the motivation. I'm trying to heal, so I will get back to the only thing that people sort of like about me, and that's my art, that's you guys.
That's it, that's what's happening and I'm praying that this ends, I have such terrible thoughts, this has to end.
I must admit I have not been well, honestly I don't recall a time in my life when I have been this distraught and overwhelmed with life in general. Without going in to much detail, I am losing the only light I have had in my life for the past 3 years and I don't know why. Every attempt I have made to fix whatever was wrong has met with cold-hearted dismissals. This person has meant the world to me and I can't see much to be happy about without her. Aside from that, I haven't had much support from a lot of people I used to think I could depend on, but to my dismay they can't seem to find time for me like I have for them time and time again. All at once I lost everytone I used to think was there for me, my tears have dried up only to make way for more and I am in a pit. I wish I could turn off my emotions like it seems everyone else has, but all I know how to do is give.
On a more professional level, I know I have left a lot of people waiting, and I promise you I am trying, I have more than a few sketches that I need to send for approval, but I just haven't had the motivation. I'm trying to heal, so I will get back to the only thing that people sort of like about me, and that's my art, that's you guys.
That's it, that's what's happening and I'm praying that this ends, I have such terrible thoughts, this has to end.
I'm sorry to hear this happening about you...
I wish I could give you a hug but I guess this would have to do *huggles the shit out of Nibbulz*
I've been stressed out lately about school and not being able to get my assignments done in time and another thing that's making it worse would have to be my mum and how upset she was...I never noticed until my grandmother had a conversation with me about how my mum wasn't happy being down here when her family lives somewhere else and the only way she can communicate with them would have to be through FB and to be honest that's obviously not enough...She's dying of loneliness and I hate to see my mum upset..she does the same thing everytime she gets home from work. She'll go outside for a few minutes, do my school clothes washing and then she'll go on the computer for the rest of the day then she'll go to bed.
I hate to see her like this and it's really stressing me out. I had to fake a smile and pretend I was happy around my friends and family so they don't see me stressed and upset.
Enough of my problems, I hope it ends for you Nibbulz just know that I'm here to talk if you want to okay?