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do you ever feel like you're "less of an artist" than others
10 years ago
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Like.. I look at how other artists are almost always producing art every day, multiple times a day.
And me? I sit here and toss out a drawing or a couple like 1-2 times a week maybe. Usually just doodles.
Also, I don't usually draw "just for the sake of drawing" I usually draw to design something I have in my head,
then once I've satisfied my need for that design I move onto something else entirely different.
and honestly my main motivation for drawing half of the time is to "get more popular" or "get people to like me"
because I have this dumb idea in my head that if people like my art they'll be more likely to talk to me??
I almost ONLY draw character designs exclusively, and I come up short all too often when trying to draw my characters doing something.
I really hate feeling like i'm drawing the "same thing" so I tend to not draw my characters doing much unless they haven't done it before or it's something I find super interesting.
As I mentioned before as well, I really don't tend to draw my own characters a whole lot, I usually get a handful of commissions of them because I enjoy seeing them in other artist's styles.
I was also told at one point by my boyfriend that he still thinks at some point I'll put down art for good and move onto something else that truly makes me happy.
A lot of the time art causes me a lot of grief and it doesn't really 'make me happy' so to speak. It's not my go-to for letting out frustration or to relax myself or anything.
I'm not happy with my future degree in visual communications although I've learned from interesting things from it.
I'm already considering starting to plan for going into Zoology, the downside of that is that I'll most definitely go into debt from it and that'll be another 4 years of school for a bachelors, which means I'll be in school until I'm 27 or so to be a Zoologist.
It's.. sort of demoralizing to think of how long school takes, and I'll be so old.
Not to mention my back issues aren't going to get any better, and my teeth are sort of starting to go to shit. I bet I'll be losing teeth by the time I'm 30 with the huge sweet tooth I've got and I honestly admit I'm not the best at remembering to brush my teeth. At least I've vowed to myself that I'll brush every time I take a shower and I take showers several days a week so it's progress.
-sigh-
Things just sorta add up, and I really hate being a burden on my boyfriend, and I really wish that I could just find something that I'd be happy doing.
I REALLY REALLY like working with and being around animals, but it's almost guaranteed that I'll need to have a degree of some kind to work with animals.
My dream job is probably working in a wild/big cat rescue or another wild rescue of some kind and being assigned certain animals to take care of on a daily basis. ;w;
And me? I sit here and toss out a drawing or a couple like 1-2 times a week maybe. Usually just doodles.
Also, I don't usually draw "just for the sake of drawing" I usually draw to design something I have in my head,
then once I've satisfied my need for that design I move onto something else entirely different.
and honestly my main motivation for drawing half of the time is to "get more popular" or "get people to like me"
because I have this dumb idea in my head that if people like my art they'll be more likely to talk to me??
I almost ONLY draw character designs exclusively, and I come up short all too often when trying to draw my characters doing something.
I really hate feeling like i'm drawing the "same thing" so I tend to not draw my characters doing much unless they haven't done it before or it's something I find super interesting.
As I mentioned before as well, I really don't tend to draw my own characters a whole lot, I usually get a handful of commissions of them because I enjoy seeing them in other artist's styles.
I was also told at one point by my boyfriend that he still thinks at some point I'll put down art for good and move onto something else that truly makes me happy.
A lot of the time art causes me a lot of grief and it doesn't really 'make me happy' so to speak. It's not my go-to for letting out frustration or to relax myself or anything.
I'm not happy with my future degree in visual communications although I've learned from interesting things from it.
I'm already considering starting to plan for going into Zoology, the downside of that is that I'll most definitely go into debt from it and that'll be another 4 years of school for a bachelors, which means I'll be in school until I'm 27 or so to be a Zoologist.
It's.. sort of demoralizing to think of how long school takes, and I'll be so old.
Not to mention my back issues aren't going to get any better, and my teeth are sort of starting to go to shit. I bet I'll be losing teeth by the time I'm 30 with the huge sweet tooth I've got and I honestly admit I'm not the best at remembering to brush my teeth. At least I've vowed to myself that I'll brush every time I take a shower and I take showers several days a week so it's progress.
-sigh-
Things just sorta add up, and I really hate being a burden on my boyfriend, and I really wish that I could just find something that I'd be happy doing.
I REALLY REALLY like working with and being around animals, but it's almost guaranteed that I'll need to have a degree of some kind to work with animals.
My dream job is probably working in a wild/big cat rescue or another wild rescue of some kind and being assigned certain animals to take care of on a daily basis. ;w;
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Its hard to stay artistically active at a steady pace, I feel like it comes more natural to other artists.
And even if we know that it's dumb to get down on ourselves, we can't help it sometimes.
It's just sometimes I look and I see people that seem to be submitting things every day and I envy them because I'm like "Wow I wish I had that sort of dedication/motivation."
But here I am over here just floundering around feeling like I'm not being productive enough. That's something I struggle with a lot, feeling like I'm not -DOING- enough.
But it's hard to stay active when you have five million other worries, as well as other hobbies you like to keep up with as well.
I really have to give it to my friend TheBraveLittle for encouraging me to get a patreon too. Part of my production (and arguably my spike in learning and passion for art again) is being responsible to some people, to keep making art for them etc. It feels good knowing I get paid partially to learn and go wherever I want to with art, makes me more inclined to experiment and invest in art products, like magazines and programs.
I still want to reach out more but I think part of it may be also finding someone whose passionate with/for you, maybe who even competes with you on a certain level, someone you can ask to try something out on or be like, hay, can you spare like a half hour to help me learn this? And knowing you won't be burdening them? Means a lot.
I want to say it's natural to have lulls, but only because I've had life interrupt my art a lot. But I always have come back to it, even after a couple years of only fucking with it casually.
Also, I can see you style meshing well with patches and clothing. Invest in two designs, that's literally all it takes to Guage if you can make a niche market on it. That is if you want some footing into money markets with art. Clothing is one of the most chill at consumables you can offer people, it works when comics and custom art doesn't. But everyone needs clothes, why not get some spiffy nya clothes? Also Nya sounds like it could be a hella spiffy shop to me, but that's just me haha. Making generic stickers, magnets and buttons work people that aren't pressured enough to buy something 20 dollars from a booth, but feel pressured to get SOMETHING just for spending the time looking. This of course only applies with face to face sales but I think with a few of the popular things you have and like to draw, you could easily slap them on shirts, buttons and stickers and have a go at a con. C:
Overall, I really sympathize with the vacillating seriousness in which you address art production. I slacked all week and felt bad, and I remember not too long ago, it took a month for me to not produce anything before I shook myself and said wtf I haven't drawn anything and my head is welling with ideas. And before that? I've gone a few years with only doodles spotting my art folders. But I always came back. Always. I feel if you've made it to your 20s and you've invested a few years in a skill, you'll find yourself revisiting it just for the hell of it. I can't see you letting your education and things you've been passionate about drawing do to waste long term. If anything you will become more connected and resourceful as you get older and you will figure ways to jam in your love of art with zoology. Many of us have through making art for donation money and that kind of thing. Who knows, maybe you'll be designing brochures or merchandising for the next animal sanctuary c:
Your words are extremely kind and they mean a lot to me. I'm not sure I can reply to EVERYTHING that you said, but I'm in complete agreement and I can see where you're coming from.
Especially regarding being around other artists helping encourage the flow of your own. It's a lot easier to get into something when other people are there with you to give you feedback and encourage you, and give you pointers as well as a little friendly competition sometimes. I personally often look to my boyfriend to validate my art because I want him to approve of me and tell me I'm doing good because it gives me that dumb little boost that makes me want to work harder because I feel like my art is making him happy.
I'm just really really bad at talking to people and I'm extremely nervous/anxious regarding talking to other people up UNTIL I'm actually talking. It's like once I actually open up and talk to people I'm fine, but I'm a nervous wreck when I THINK about it because I always have some sort of mantra in my head going "why the hell would people want anything to do with me? I'm trash tier."
And also, regarding the buttons/clothing design/selling small stuff, I've actually been considering doing stuff like that and trying to market it.
Not sure exactly where to go through for them as far as websites that allow you to sell your own designs 'n stuff, but I've definitely thought it was a cool idea.