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10 years ago
You said it yourself, Bitch
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Skype: itsaVod
Twitter: @itsaVod
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We'll start with the life updates first.
So, in the past week some big changes have happened.
We've acquired a new roomie, spookythewolf !
It's different living with a third person, but I have loved every minute of it so far!
Couldn't have asked for a better roommate! :)
Also, it seems that my anxiety is back and in full swing.
It happens every month and stays with me for a few weeks up to a month then leaves for about a week, maybe till the next episode.
(I also realize this could be manic and depressive episodes too, but I am unsure as I haven't been keeping great track since being away from a therapist for over two years now.)
--It doesn't help my mood swings and in fact it is crippling at times with how bad it can get.
I get little to literally no sleep and god forbid I get RESTFUL sleep during these times too.
I don't know what the trigger is honestly, but I need to get to a therapist to help sort this out because each episode is getting worse and worse.
I know part of it deals with life: finances, art owed, art in general, body image woes, junk like that. But literally, I won't be thinking of a god damn thing and my anxiety SHOOTS through the roof. It's like am impending doom feeling that constantly lurks over me..waiting for something to happen, but nothing ever does, or if it does, SAVE ME. Lol. :/ I joke, but, I really do need help.. ;3;
So that also brings me to my commissioners:
I am sorry things are taking so long. I truly have not forgotten about you, in fact you are probably on my mind more than you should be! :P
Like above, I'm trying to cope with some things lately and it seems like I'm literally just spiraling.
With that being said, I AM WORKING on all art that is owed. I'm just being slow and I don't want to deliver things to my clients that I know can be so much better.
I'm super picky with what I give to people. I want it to be 'perfect' and that is another thing that plays into my anxiety.
I will hopefully have updates for artwork very soon for everyone on my Trello!
With all this anxiety instead of working, all I feel like doing is laying down forever and never getting back up.
TL:DR
I have a shit ton of anxiety and I'm spiraling. Lol. :/
I'm working on things slowly, but I really am working. I promise.
Please, just be gentle. I haven't had any problems, but, just still asking for your compassion <3
Love you all and have a great week <3
>>List of Shit To-Do<<
YCH TO BE COMPLETED: YCH Trello Queue
March Commissions: March Trello Batch
April Commissions: April Trello Batch
- VodWe're the Guardians of the Galaxy.
Deep breathing really helps so much xD
You seem like a kickass person and I believe in you, dude! Best wishes. ^w^
I always recommend finding a place of mental and physical comfort depending on what the anxiety is fixated on (I would mentally ramp up my own anxiety, freaking out because I was freaking out I guess??). What always worked to calm me down was to lay down on my back on the floor, completely flat, and to take deep, calculated breaths. In-two-three... Out-two-three... counts if that helps.
I also like to do the five things method, five things you can see, smell, hear, feel, and taste (taste is kind of tough but it helps if you're chewing on anything). And if all else fails, aggressive self talk building myself up X3.
Hopefully some of those methods will help if you haven't tried them before, anxiety sucks but keep your chin up, it's definitely possible to get a handle on it!! Good luck!
try to stay positive you have my support <3
my boyfriend is living with you?
WHAT