I have two months of rent saved up, and no prospect for a job-- although I have applied to every McDonalds, Wendy's, Burger King and retail outlet within 15 miles -- if this is going to by my last two months before I am homeless, then I am going to put forth the most personal, intimate artwork, stories, recordings and music that I've ever made.

I've lacked in friends. I've neglected my family. I'm 35 and I don't have anyone I can go out to lunch with. I've spent the entire last 24 years hoping that I could create the 'perfect' artwork that would make people want to know me. I realize that's not how friendships happen. Not real friendships.

So I am going to finish my most personal artwork and put it out there, along with the music I've composed, the stories I've written, all the stuff I've kept to myself for 24 years.

I wish I'd lived a better life. I with I'd loved people more.

All I can ask for, and what I do ask for, is that you look at it, listen to it, read it.... this has been my whole life.

I am not asking for pity--- I know what awaits me; I've looked up death by starvation and it is horrible, but please at least look at what I did with my life.

Thank you for your time.