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The Sad Part
10 years ago
So after my last Journal, I made my decision to say goodbye to my friend again. The typical shit happened; excuses of all sorts which were half-assed and did not make sense.
"You are asking me to talk to you when I need to not to talk to anyone"
Uhh.. no, if that were the case, you would not talk to ANYONE, which you do.
"Your being unfair by doing this"
Know what else is unfair? Singling me out(And probably others, I dont know) to make time for OTHER friends.
"I just wanted draw and-"
EXACTLY. One or two "Hello, how are you doing" exchanges every other day is bad enough, but when your literally putting drawing above your friends? Thats a problem. Actually, your not even putting it above your friends, you are putting it above me!
"I'm stressed with my mom and things are coming up in real life"
Well you know what? For someone who has so much heavy stuff on her shoulders, she sure does derp and goof around a lot with her other friends. You do not act stressed at all. Do not tell me that when you have the free time and careful mindset of spending all day online.
"I dont socialize"
...THEN WHY SOCIALIZE, YOU STUPID GIRL!?
Thats all of the top of my head. My friend has made it clear through her actions that she does not want to talk to me or socialize with me. She wants to selectively talk to certain people ONLY and draw furries and furry porn.
I have nothing against drawing or drawing porn, but when you put it above some of your friends, then I am sorry, but that is treating certain people shitty. I literally got no damn idea why she even tried to defend herself and say "I'll try to be better" when she had no intention to do that at all.
I really fucking hate being treated in this shitty manner, and is the main reason why I told her I am utterly done. She wants to treat people like that? Fine, but I aint putting up with it. If you got free time, then you got free time, and you should feed people a shit excuse as to why you cant socialize with them. If you dont want to be around them, THEN SAY IT TO THEIR FACE.
So why am I making this journal and bitching about it? Because it fucking HURTS to know that I said "we're done" and shes not in the least bit upset that I am gone. I knew this person for nearly 10 years and yet they just shrug it off, continue to derp around, doodle, draw porn, and give no care in the world.
My friendship meant UTTERLY NOTHING TO THIS PERSON. That hurts. Especially when I am willing to stand by anyone's side under almost any circumstance possible. I give as much compassion as I can muster, which is not much. I myself can be a very shitty person. I will admit my flaws, but I wont say that makes me better than others.
This is my last vent on the matter, because I dont want to give her anything anymore. That includes pressing the block button. I wont give her that reaction. This Journal will be my last word on the matter, and that is all there will ever be ever again.
Sometime from now, she'll come to my page, read this, and probably say something about it. I don't know. Since I predicted that, she'll probably not do it out of spite or something. I dont care.
Thats all I will say on that matter. People who read this: if you got someone who is treating you unfairly in any way, say something. and if it persist and your being hurt, take the steps to fix it. Even if you have to say goodbye to that person, just do it for your own health and self respect.
Ak out.
"You are asking me to talk to you when I need to not to talk to anyone"
Uhh.. no, if that were the case, you would not talk to ANYONE, which you do.
"Your being unfair by doing this"
Know what else is unfair? Singling me out(And probably others, I dont know) to make time for OTHER friends.
"I just wanted draw and-"
EXACTLY. One or two "Hello, how are you doing" exchanges every other day is bad enough, but when your literally putting drawing above your friends? Thats a problem. Actually, your not even putting it above your friends, you are putting it above me!
"I'm stressed with my mom and things are coming up in real life"
Well you know what? For someone who has so much heavy stuff on her shoulders, she sure does derp and goof around a lot with her other friends. You do not act stressed at all. Do not tell me that when you have the free time and careful mindset of spending all day online.
"I dont socialize"
...THEN WHY SOCIALIZE, YOU STUPID GIRL!?
Thats all of the top of my head. My friend has made it clear through her actions that she does not want to talk to me or socialize with me. She wants to selectively talk to certain people ONLY and draw furries and furry porn.
I have nothing against drawing or drawing porn, but when you put it above some of your friends, then I am sorry, but that is treating certain people shitty. I literally got no damn idea why she even tried to defend herself and say "I'll try to be better" when she had no intention to do that at all.
I really fucking hate being treated in this shitty manner, and is the main reason why I told her I am utterly done. She wants to treat people like that? Fine, but I aint putting up with it. If you got free time, then you got free time, and you should feed people a shit excuse as to why you cant socialize with them. If you dont want to be around them, THEN SAY IT TO THEIR FACE.
So why am I making this journal and bitching about it? Because it fucking HURTS to know that I said "we're done" and shes not in the least bit upset that I am gone. I knew this person for nearly 10 years and yet they just shrug it off, continue to derp around, doodle, draw porn, and give no care in the world.
My friendship meant UTTERLY NOTHING TO THIS PERSON. That hurts. Especially when I am willing to stand by anyone's side under almost any circumstance possible. I give as much compassion as I can muster, which is not much. I myself can be a very shitty person. I will admit my flaws, but I wont say that makes me better than others.
This is my last vent on the matter, because I dont want to give her anything anymore. That includes pressing the block button. I wont give her that reaction. This Journal will be my last word on the matter, and that is all there will ever be ever again.
Sometime from now, she'll come to my page, read this, and probably say something about it. I don't know. Since I predicted that, she'll probably not do it out of spite or something. I dont care.
Thats all I will say on that matter. People who read this: if you got someone who is treating you unfairly in any way, say something. and if it persist and your being hurt, take the steps to fix it. Even if you have to say goodbye to that person, just do it for your own health and self respect.
Ak out.
