I have to put on the facade of being fine, and happy and wishing everyone a happy mothers day. While my womb is still empty, and my arms still ache to encircle a child that isn't there...
This is another mother's Day, after 9 years of trying to concieve and three miscarriages, that I won't get to see my childs smile, or a grubby hand holding a flower, I won't get to hear pitter patter of little feet or giggles and peals of laughter...

But, to everyone around me, it's wrong to feel down that I don't have a child this year, or last, or the one before that... that 3 years ago (in October) that I lost my last child and since then I havn't been pregnant since...

I think I'm going to hide away today and say "feck em"