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I'M ALIVE (UPDATED. XD)
10 years ago
Awesome Friends!In no real order, of course, my delicate darlings: 
Hey you filthy animals!
Just wanted to make a quick journal, since I kinda fell off the face of the earth until recently. Like most people, shit happens, you have life struggles and it can make you pull away from everything and everyone. I crawled into my dark, depressing hole and got a bit too cozy there.
There were quite a few things going on that hit me....I postponed my move, which was supposed to be a big step up for my life. Moving in with my boyfriend, out of state, out of my mother's house...that's a huge deal! It sucked pretty bad. I was supposed to be out nearly a year ago. But it's definitely for the better. We'd rather not waste our money on rent, and save to buy. But it still sucks being this old and still at home, making little money.
I've also been having money issues, like many of us here know all too well....I don't make much, and I didn't have health insurance, giving me some pretty hefty medical bills, along with another grand in car repair bills....
We also had to put my dog down a little over a month ago. She was 17. My first and only dog. (my dad has one, but I don't live there, so it's not the same at all)...It was really fuckin traumatic too. Her trachea collapsed and she wasn't getting any air...I was away for the weekend, and it happened that Friday night. My mom just though she was sick, since she didn't seem distressed. I'm the one who took her to vet, too, bc my mom isn't too keen on potentially wasting a big sum of money, since vets are hella expensive. This was the hardest thing I've had to do in my entire life. I still cry just thinking about her. I wish she had just peacefully passed away.
Being in a long distance relationship also REALLY sucks sometimes. REALLY sucks...
I know I could have it so much worse, and that other people do, but we all deal with things in our own way and it all sucks, no matter what. We're not comparing anything, EVER.
But, yea....I just glued myself to my bed and zoned out into my tv for several months (with the exception of some random moments I actually went out)
FUCK THAT.
I'm over it.
I miss everyone.
I miss life.
Spring is here and I AM ALIVE.
I'm out of my sad cocoon. I can't stay there anymore. It's not fair to me or my friends who I love to death.
I'm sorry that I pulled away and pretty much disappeared.
Is anyone going to FTM? There's a small chance I can actually get out there for a day or two!
Who's going to AC? That's a con I'm DEFINITELY going to. I haven't been in a few years, and with certain factors making it basically impossible to turn down, I've got to go. :D
I also might be at FAU, and hopefully will definitely be at FP.
I <3 you all!
Just wanted to make a quick journal, since I kinda fell off the face of the earth until recently. Like most people, shit happens, you have life struggles and it can make you pull away from everything and everyone. I crawled into my dark, depressing hole and got a bit too cozy there.
There were quite a few things going on that hit me....I postponed my move, which was supposed to be a big step up for my life. Moving in with my boyfriend, out of state, out of my mother's house...that's a huge deal! It sucked pretty bad. I was supposed to be out nearly a year ago. But it's definitely for the better. We'd rather not waste our money on rent, and save to buy. But it still sucks being this old and still at home, making little money.
I've also been having money issues, like many of us here know all too well....I don't make much, and I didn't have health insurance, giving me some pretty hefty medical bills, along with another grand in car repair bills....
We also had to put my dog down a little over a month ago. She was 17. My first and only dog. (my dad has one, but I don't live there, so it's not the same at all)...It was really fuckin traumatic too. Her trachea collapsed and she wasn't getting any air...I was away for the weekend, and it happened that Friday night. My mom just though she was sick, since she didn't seem distressed. I'm the one who took her to vet, too, bc my mom isn't too keen on potentially wasting a big sum of money, since vets are hella expensive. This was the hardest thing I've had to do in my entire life. I still cry just thinking about her. I wish she had just peacefully passed away.
Being in a long distance relationship also REALLY sucks sometimes. REALLY sucks...
I know I could have it so much worse, and that other people do, but we all deal with things in our own way and it all sucks, no matter what. We're not comparing anything, EVER.
But, yea....I just glued myself to my bed and zoned out into my tv for several months (with the exception of some random moments I actually went out)
FUCK THAT.
I'm over it.
I miss everyone.
I miss life.
Spring is here and I AM ALIVE.
I'm out of my sad cocoon. I can't stay there anymore. It's not fair to me or my friends who I love to death.
I'm sorry that I pulled away and pretty much disappeared.
Is anyone going to FTM? There's a small chance I can actually get out there for a day or two!
Who's going to AC? That's a con I'm DEFINITELY going to. I haven't been in a few years, and with certain factors making it basically impossible to turn down, I've got to go. :D
I also might be at FAU, and hopefully will definitely be at FP.
I <3 you all!
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