I was suppose to see Pitch Perfect 2 tonight but my plans have been canceled. My friend is not doing well and might break up with her boyfriend. I'm not quite sure what to do since she isn't talking to me, and shutting me out. Which kind of hurts a bit I wont lie.

I will not promise anything. But if I'm feeling well enough I'm going to try and stream. My stomach for some reason does not feel good and I cannot figure out why. I'm going to take a nap and hopefully that'll help. Again not making any promises but I will try hard.

Lately it has been really hard for me to stay home due to my mother. I love my mom, and she honestly is a good mom. But over the past two years she has become paranoid, passive aggressive, and has purposefully tried to start fights. She says the fights help her release stress. Which is seriously unhealthy. I've tried to talk her into seeing a therapist but she just wont listen. And whenever we get in a fight I try to keep calm, and she tries to egg me on. I explain to her I'm trying to be rational and an adult. She throws it in my face.

I'm getting worn out, and feel like all she does is list how horrible I am. I'm trying to get a more steady job, and save up to move out by the end of the summer. My grandmother has offered to pay first and last months rent so that I can get out of there. Bless her soul.

So basically I've been avoiding home, and haven't been able to work on commission because of it. Which upsets me. But tonight I'm going to try, and hopefully nothing will be started.

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Radical