I will be coming back Monday June 13. I would like to apologize for my long absence from the site, and from those who I owe art. I plan on contacting those I owe on Monday and making things right.

There is a good reason for why I have not been as involved in art, and with this site as I have in the past. As you all know I started working at a tanning salon a year ago. I found out that the manager in charge was thrown into a bad situation, and needed help. So I offered help and became friends with my manager. A lot of times I worked after hours without getting paid. And I was and am okay with that. I'm still okay with it because I truly love working here, and have met some amazing people.

As you know it was a rough fall/ winter. My brother became sick. And I worked full time while going to school full time.

And Spike had a scare with colic. Which was not a fun day for me.

What I did not tell anyone was that I was being bullied at work. I didn't even tell my manager until a month or so later after the bullying became clear. I thought I was being a good person by becoming friends with someone who I thought was an adult. Someone that I thought I could look up to and who would understand me. There were red flags. Mean comments that were made of other people that I cared about. But I brushed it off. What happened was I distanced myself from this employee, and they were not happy about that. So they started bad mouthing me behind my back to my manager. Thankfully my manager did not believe her, and by the time true colors were shown we couldn't really do anything. We needed this employee. It was a seasonal position and once I was out classes for the summer we no longer needed this employee. We had made it clear what her last day was. And on her last day she called my manager telling her I should be fired. That I was a toxic person, that I talked behind peoples backs and said horrible things. She continued to tell my manager that I needed to be fired, and she needed to be hired in my place.

This whole ordeal has caused a lot of anxiety, stress, and depression. I never talked about it because I was terrified of this woman and still am. I admit I did not handle the situation well, and I did not cope well at all. I ignored the things I loved to do, and pushed people I deeply care about away. When I had my first problem with this bully I should have talked to my manager and I did not.

I would like to again apologize to those who have been nothing but supportive. Even when I disappeared. I appreciate the happy thoughts and love. I also feel guilty and ashamed that I let this part of my life fall. This is a great community, and I deeply miss creating art.

I am going to try baby steps first. Again contacting those I owe art to on Monday, uploading the freebie traditional art I have done, and maybe eventually streaming again.

Again I am so sorry that I have been gone this long.

Radical.