Honestly... I'm feeling like my "friends" are faking it. Like, the don't actually want to be friends with me, but I try hard to make more and keep the ones I have, so they just act like my friend but really don't want to spend time with me or talk to me... Maybe that's why when I notice that I'm no longer friends with someone on Facebook, I ask them about it, I'd rather know you don't want to be my friend than waste my energy on a fake, and they just tell me it was an accident or Facebook removed you and I don't know why...

Sometimes I feel like just giving up on keeping a social life...

I know I keep a strong face and act like it doesn't matter... But it really does... I'm actually quite insecure when it comes to friends...