I feel completely and desperately alone.
I know what day it is but I feel like it's not the day it's supposed to be.
It's hard to eat.
I really honestly don't feel okay and I don't know how or what's wrong.
I'm so anxious.
And empty.
But I keep pretending I'm fine.

Is this depression...
Am I falling back into this horrid place.
I don't wanna fall back into the same horridly pitiful patterns.

Please
I need help not doing anything stupid,
but I'm afraid to ask my friends and family for help.