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Just Need to Vent
10 years ago
And while I will not mention any names, if anyone reads this journal and thinks that I am speaking of them, please do not feel any guilt or sadness. What has happened has happened and I blame no one...it's just been piling up and I need to let these things out so I can feel....well, less worse.
So, as many of my watchers know, my mate of three years and I broke up recently, an event which saddened me but which we both knew was coming, I believe, for several months before it actually happened. And while I have no doubt it was the right choice, that fact does not make it hurt any less.
Then, I held hope that I had two potential furs in my local area with whom I might be able to start a new chapter of my life with, fantastic men who I greatly enjoyed spending time with and who felt the same towards me. Sadly, after speaking with both of them, despite being single themselves, they informed me that both were not looking to date at all. The hope those two represented was, unknown by me, helping to hold back some of the tide of sadness from my break up. And when that hope was smashed, well...flood gates failing and all that.
Then, today, while doing something as simple as bending over to open a drawer, I injured my back so greatly that I have been in bed all day and unable to sit up or move without great pain. As if that weren't enough, I received an email that informed me that my easy summer job, teaching at a summer redemption program (one that only required me to teach from a preestablished and prepared curriculum, with workbooks and computer lessons) had been taken from me and, as consolation, I was being moved to another program, one in which I will have to teach twice as long and have nothing prepared with which to teach each day, but make everything up on my own. (sighs)
I apologize if this journal has too much whining in it. But I needed to get it out and, I hope, this will allow me to calm down and be better able to handle all these matters. I blame no one for these events, and I love every person I purposefully did not mention in this journal. What happened was no one's fault and happened because it either needed to happen or just was not meant to be.
It all just really, really sucks....it really does.
Thank you to anyone who reads this.
So, as many of my watchers know, my mate of three years and I broke up recently, an event which saddened me but which we both knew was coming, I believe, for several months before it actually happened. And while I have no doubt it was the right choice, that fact does not make it hurt any less.
Then, I held hope that I had two potential furs in my local area with whom I might be able to start a new chapter of my life with, fantastic men who I greatly enjoyed spending time with and who felt the same towards me. Sadly, after speaking with both of them, despite being single themselves, they informed me that both were not looking to date at all. The hope those two represented was, unknown by me, helping to hold back some of the tide of sadness from my break up. And when that hope was smashed, well...flood gates failing and all that.
Then, today, while doing something as simple as bending over to open a drawer, I injured my back so greatly that I have been in bed all day and unable to sit up or move without great pain. As if that weren't enough, I received an email that informed me that my easy summer job, teaching at a summer redemption program (one that only required me to teach from a preestablished and prepared curriculum, with workbooks and computer lessons) had been taken from me and, as consolation, I was being moved to another program, one in which I will have to teach twice as long and have nothing prepared with which to teach each day, but make everything up on my own. (sighs)
I apologize if this journal has too much whining in it. But I needed to get it out and, I hope, this will allow me to calm down and be better able to handle all these matters. I blame no one for these events, and I love every person I purposefully did not mention in this journal. What happened was no one's fault and happened because it either needed to happen or just was not meant to be.
It all just really, really sucks....it really does.
Thank you to anyone who reads this.
Hang in there! With your looks and personality I doubt you'll be single for very long. ^^
Wish I could say something more positive about your work. Except good teachers are always needed, somewhere. Sometimes finding that somewhere is tricky.
At any rate, do try to keep your head held high. Your friends are here to support you.
Also, get a heating pad on that back and take some advil!
If you need ANYTHING, please get at me Blackburn.
I know all too well how you feel right now, and the best thing to at least ice the fire is friends.
Feel better hun <3
even when love coming to an end is mutual, its still going to hurt in the end. so its good to let that pain out a bit. you have friends that are willing to lend a shoulder to lean on during this time and will do what they can to help you up.
i'm sorry to hear about your back. ><; i really hope you feel better soon.
as far as the job….i have a long list on that one. lol.
as i've said, you have friends willing to lend a shoulder and an ear. always free to send me a message on Skype.