So, for those who have seen my private twitter, my condition as of late hasn't been the best, my mental condition has hit the point that I've gotten physically ill from the stress.

I haven't told anyone on FA, or really plan to post this really anywhere.

Lately, I've been going through abuse. A lot of it, mostly emotional abuse from my family that's been built up for years, causing me to break down every few weeks or so of the same thing because I can only handle so much.

My family has never been supportive of me and what I want to do, they've constantly told me how shitty of a person I am, and apparently. That's not the norm compared to most households. Personally, I think it's normal to get emotional abuse from my family, or getting jabs, so I'm always baffled when I see family members get along because my family loves taking any chance to insult and make me cry, yet never noticing the blame is on them. [I've confessed to them on how much the abuse has hurt me overall as a person]

Every time I've spoke and brought up issues, they just blame me in the end, and tell me how I won't go anywhere in life.

Lately, it's been hitting me harder than ever, and I don't like that. I don't like dealing with this emotional pain and I can barely get out of my home without getting hit with emotional abuse and how life would be better without me being alive.
It's been sucking motivation from me.

I'm going to repeat this constantly though. I don't want pity, I don't want people feeling sorry for my problems, because I don't think my problems are very bad, I've heard mixxed reviews though, but I just.. I need to let this out.