I'll try to fix or adjust to Clip Studio tomorrow. Whatever comes first.

Today just sucks. I'm trying to keep looking up. I'm trying to stay happy, but all in all, I'm miserable right now.

I know you guys don't know, but I've lost roughly a dozen relatives in a little more than two years. That's just the ones closest to me. More than twice that if you include the relatives I didn't know that well. Four times that within three years if you include friends of my immediate family and family friends. A little over half a dozen of our relatives are dying right now. Roughly 75% of those lost and who we're losing now are under 65 years old. Around 25% weren't even 45 years old.

Not all were natural causes, but most are. I'm in this word zone where my depression is eating me up even more when I stop and think about what this means for my mom or other relatives I'm close to.

I'm just being whiney, I know. I've made promises so I'm not going to delve into self harm or anything.

Don't worry guys. I'm still here no matter how badly I wish I wasn't some days.

(Commission wise I got some things done)