Trust me Night ik your not saying it about me. My
Journal was just an explantion and backstory to who i am ^^ i have no intention on getting attention those who see it. Can see it and know a bit about me. Thats what you write down in journals or diaries am i wrong?

Stumbled on this journal while page surfing, figured I'd share my thoughts.

Sometimes people just need a boost or to know that somebody in the world can empathize with them. They don't always have the friends or family they can rely on, or maybe they're so down that they are scared to let their close friends know, scared of how they'll react, scared that they won't react at all. There's lots of reasons for somebody to reach out to strangers. Primarily sometimes just being able to vent semi-anonymously and knowing that somebody read it and understands you is enough to pick your spirits back up.

It's great that you're able to cope with your problems, and that you have friends to reach out to when you can't cope with them alone. Not everyone functions the way you function, not everyone has the same resources you have. I don't find it laughable at all, it's sad when people are feeling so down on themselves that they just want to reach out at the world like that to not feel alone. There's nothing wrong with asking for help sometimes, and there's nothing wrong with giving it.

Also, just because somebody didn't want to take help from you but then turned around and posted a journal like that doesn't mean they didn't need help in the first place, it just means they probably don't trust easily, or possibly didn't like something about your character, or they are depressed which tends to lead to anti-social behaviour. It's somehow easier to spill your guts in an impersonal manner and get shit off your back than it is to have a one on one conversation with somebody about them too, so there's that to consider. It's self centered of you to think that people are "pulling shit like that" despite you having reached out for them, not everything is about you and you're not going to be an appropriate fit for connecting with everybody, that's just how the world works.

Not sure how much empathy you've got if you didn't think about the people who have recently posted a journal like that (and I think I know who's journal triggered you posting this one, because I see that you are watching the person) before you wrote all this. If anybody who posted a journal like that recently saw this journal they'd probably be hurt, and feel stupid, and self conscious, and embarrassed, and none of that is fair because they were already at the point of reaching out so they didn't have to feel alone in their struggle, and this would have knocked them down even further. Regardless of you not "trying" to be cynical or hurtful, you may have succeeded in coming across as both of those things. Not sure what you gained by sharing your thoughts here, but I hope you reconsider them and end up growing as a person.

I can understand what you mean by all of this, and your thoughts are certainly logical and well reasoned. I have a lot of empathy for others, and it's somewhat frustrating at times. The person I'm talking about has a habit of this and then being very harsh and rude to others. This isn't something I'd mention of just any person; They've tended to have their own issues of themself, and that's fine, but It's.. infuriating to see them crush others when they ask them for help. And it isn't just myself that's tried to help them. In fact, I care for them pretty deeply.
And yes, I'm pretty cynical. After.. all I've seen, it's hard not to be. Hurtful? I try not to be so directly; It's something I'm careful of.. I care for most people pretty deeply. There's nothing wrong with reaching out, it's mostly due to past experiences of this specific person and how they've treated others.. And I do still care for them deeply. I do.
I know personally I have issues reaching out; I'm someone who for the most part keeps everything inside. When I posted this.. I just felt angry and hurt, angry and myself and hurt with someone else.